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Hey look.. its Dirge!

Postby Dirge » Wed Oct 29, 2003 3:16 pm

Hello there! :D
...
I'm really bored and I saw this neat forum thing and I was like, woo I'm bored, lets talk about myself n_n (haha, not really)
anyways.. a autobio it shall be.. as I know that you are all DIEING to know me.
my happy life began in the town of Sacramento, California. I dont really remember much of that.. I just remember this kid across the street that was really weird.. he had a park in his backyard. but to get there you had to walk across a big field. I was stupid, and decided to go with no shoes- and wouldnt you know there was stickers that we kept on stepping on. ..DANG those things HURT. well after walking very carefully and getting poked in the feet with stickers we finally made it to the playground. and there was a bee's nest of course. Riley goes "oh look" and he started poking it. (we were only 4, come on!) he got stung and ran home.. he had shoes. and I was beeing harrassed by bees. I never got stung tho. thats all I remember of that. oh.. I also really liked walking around in the exaust of cars at that time.. the smell was so cool.. and dad said it would mess me up.. *ponder*
OK ANYWAYS
then after that, we moved to Missouri where my little brother was born. Truthfully.. he's really annoying (ain that right Lain?) but ya.. I liked him for the first few minutes I held him, you know.. after he was born, the first time I ever saw him, then he started crying and I started hating him. We lived in a neighborhood with no kids, but we had this HUGE backyard that was nothing but a field.. and there was woods at the back with a big creek to go fishing in.. that was cool- thats also were I turned into a tree hugger. and I liked the wild turkeys :D
...moving on
then we moved to Iowa. It snows alot there. that was always fun to dig up the street signs tho.. ya.. we stayed there for about 4 years. I just remember being really popular at school.
.. I doubt you guys care where I've been, but it does explain why I am the way I am.
After that we moved to Pennsylvania. and I was teased alot for something.. I cant remember.. the kids would only be nice to me if they wanted me to draw a pokemon card.. and I lived in a neighborhood where it was all Jews around us.. not to offend.. they didnt talk to us at all.. the one girl that did talk to me was 2 years younger.. we had a secret club XD this is where my love for drawing became clear to me
..so you see? that was where my life got bad.
We only stayed in PA for 7 months and moved to Tn. that was the best time of my life. I had WONDERFUL friends, it was absolutly GORGOUS there, we lived on Signal Mountain.. I loved it. My 6th grade year was terrible. Mainly my fault. I hated the preppy people- they were always mean to me.. so they gave me crap everyday- I had Hannah, she was my best friend that year.. everything was tight except for the teasing thing.. I remember coming home and crying b/c of how they treated me. so as you could probably tell I have strong feelings about people like that.
I stayed in TN- 5 through 8th grade. In 7th grade I met laura- she was homeschooled all her life and then finally came to a public school. in all honesty, she was pretty annoying b/c she always needed to run to class right after the bell ending class rang. but she cooled down, got used to everything, and she was really the best person I've ever met. That was also the year Jessica came in, and she made me and hannah somewhat seperate b/c in all honesty she was a ****. so Hannah and I arent the same. Laura taught me more patience then I could never achieve without her. She also (kinda) introduced me to anime.. I had been watching Card Captor Sakura on the WB for a few weeks before I met her.. and when she saw all the pictures I had of Sakura she was all, "oh, thats so neat" and she had another friend named megan (to whom I was later introduced) and she was the one that told laura about anime.. tis a long story.
Then in 8th grade I had to change schools b/c mom didnt like some of the teachers and people. I hated that at first. but thats where I met chris and john.. and tons of other awesome people. but I'll only talk about those two right now. (wow this is really long.. I'm proud of you if you read this far already)
I was really hard-hearted b/c of how people treated me in the previous years. but this school was a christian private school, and the people were different.. they were nicer.. and for a really long time I wouldnt talk to many people and I HATED to be touched. but OF COURSE chris LOVES to give hugs. so he showed me lots of love- and now ..I have a huge well.. not crush.. more like HEART-THROB for him :E I love you chris!
It is because of this school.. and how the people were.. that made me wonder if God really does change people.. I remember being a big christian when I was a kid.. but after I was treated so badly and started to hate people I just kindof drifted away from that.. It made me wonder if what I had been doubting was true.. was there really a God? because forever I just didnt know what to think.. I didnt believe in other religions, but I couldnt make myself believe that some spirit thing that you cant see really is watching us all the time, that He actually cares for us and makes lives better.. of course I have heard the miracle stories and all that.. but miracles could mean anything.. I mean.. we could just be another religion like the buddists, who think they are right and everyone else is wrong. The buddists have their little bible thing..I think.. I'm not really into studying other religions.. and they have all these ritual things, and if they are so believing in their gods like we are in ours, then couldnt we be the same way? I'm going to deep for even myself to comprehend.
So.. my life was cool at first, then turned to shiz, then turned cool with this christian school. I got depressed after john dumped me.. thats why I think 'going out' it stupid now.
then I had to leave my paradise and move here. To arizona.
To tell you the truth, I really hate it here. I have a few friends that I really love (lain and ted)
there are numerous reasons why I dont like it here, but I wont list them all. lets just say: dirt and more dirt. occasional hills (aka mountains) and mostly unpleasent people
the people here are judgemental and immature. they spotlight one kid and tease him so that their friends can have a laugh. Its pathetic really.
As for Lain Isawaga (however you spell that last name) she's my best friend. there are some things we dissagree on, but we make eachother's lifes bearable. We also started our comic, The Comic That Has No Name. (which we are planning on publishing and selling in a few years.. tis a bit of an odd name.. but it suits) I'm artist, she's the main script- I have a few script ideas.. but she's really in charge of that. My avatar is one of the main characters based on me. She's an alien, who meets a skitzofrentic vampire (ash's character) the comic doesnt really have a point, but most of the people that've read it so far find it funny.
hmm.. so thats my life in general.
My family consists of Mom and Dad.. and Brother. Brother dude is 9. he's cool sometimes... but really clingy.. and I like being left alone.. so we dont get along to well.
Mom and Dad shower me with a little TO MUCH love so I feel trapped half the time. Thats why I dont care about being loved to much. I get enough at home. I guess its better then having no parents.. (o_o) Dad used to be in the Air Force, thats why we moved so much.
uhmm.. heres some pointless info you can get off my profile:
I'm fifteen, my birthday is November 1st. I like computers ..alot.. and no I'm not a computer geek. I'm more of what people catagorize me as "punk" altho I'd beg to differ. I guess I wear black alot.. but thats b/c it goes with everything.. I hate preps.. and I'm not exactly what you'd call normal.. so I'm just.. .. otaku! bahaha
I like Rock, Hard rock, Metal.. ..any music really.. EXCEPT FOR RAP!! DIE, RAP DIE!
umm I have real short brown hair, kinda spiked in the back.. I like to skate, but that's when its not so HOT. **I live in a human rotisary!! arg!!** (how'm I doing on spelling so far? XD)
hmm.. you know, I have to say, I dont mean to offend anyone by ANYTHING I say.. so if I start ranting about the "in-crowd" or what I think about most of america.. or things I dont like.. just ignore it. I dont mean to upset anyone by it. I just like to get my fooked opinions off my chest sometimes..
ah well.. some people find me simple.. others find me really confusing and deep.
Well, thanks for enduring this pointless never-ending autobio. I'm proud of you if you read it all.. you get your squirrel points for the day.
I hope you have an ABSOLUTELY NEAT day! :D
- THE QUESIONABLE
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Postby Spiritsword » Wed Oct 29, 2003 5:54 pm

Hi Dirge! So you left me hanging with one of the best parts of your autobio--did you come back into the Christian faith? I can identify with you in some ways--I fell out of the faith (a little later than you) around the beginning of high school. I tend to have a very skeptical, analytical, proof-based mind (show me), so faith is very difficult for me. Thankfully God sent some very special people my way and He Himself worked His will in my life, actually sent me some signs, and brought me back to Him. So what about you?

Are you a Card Captor Sakura fan? I LOVE CCS, but the original Japanese version is SO much better than the American Cardcaptors version. I hope if you haven't seen the original yet that you will get a chance! I'd also really like to see some of your artwork of Sakura sometime.

Sounds like you've gotten to experience a bunch of different states. I agree, I'd rather live around trees and water than in a dry, hot, desert-like land.
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Postby Shinja » Wed Oct 29, 2003 7:48 pm

hey welcome, ive really been behind on welcomeing people, but i hope you like it here,
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Postby Dirge » Wed Oct 29, 2003 8:07 pm

hah. well spiritsword, I kindof stopped where I am right now. I still need a sign that its real..although I'm not about to change religion anytime this life time. anyways I havent seen the original CCS.. I'll try soon, I think it'll be hard to get a hold of tho.. and I think that since I'm just so used the the american one, it'll be like the Pepsi/Cola scenerio, I'll still like the american one.
I saw the Japanese Inu yasha, and that is MUCH better than the american one.. they all sound so dead.. and stupid.. ::nodnod:: Have you seen the Japanese one?
anyways, a part that is obvious- but I didnt add it- was that I'm a freshman in highschool.. I shake fist! I hate feeling so young! and I hang around mostly sophmores and such, so I guess it doesnt matter...
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Postby Spiritsword » Thu Oct 30, 2003 4:56 pm

No, I haven't seen the Japanese Inu Yasha, only the CN version. As for Card Captor Sakura, I'd be very surprised if you didn't like the Japanese version better. They didn't just change the voices or cut out one or two scenes for the American version, they cut out about 1/3 of the episodes in the series, changed the whole focus of the anime from Sakura to Li and Sakura, and downplayed a lot of the parts that make it an interesting anime.

Don't worry about feeling young. I've said it before, two areas where I don't think age matters to a large degree are anime and faith.

I hope that God will give you exactly the push you need to go all the way over to Him. He has a way of doing that. ;) If you ever want to talk about it, feel free to PM me.
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Postby Dirge » Thu Oct 30, 2003 5:52 pm

ya, I heard that the Japanese series focused mainly on Sakura and Li liking eachother or something like that.. anyways, you know they have a CCS movie now? the theory of romance or something like that.. I could look it up if you want.
awe, it'll come in time.. I just gotta get my life back in line first.
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Postby Technomancer » Thu Oct 30, 2003 7:25 pm

The movie's not bad, I saw it a couple of years ago. Quite a bit more interesting than what I've seen of the series.
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Postby Dirge » Thu Oct 30, 2003 7:29 pm

ooOOoo
I didnt know it was an old movie.. it just showed up in my october newty...wait.. oho haha
I just got the April newtype a couple weeks ago.. hahah.. silly me getting all confused.
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Postby MasterDias » Thu Oct 30, 2003 7:34 pm

Whoa, that's quite a big life story. Welcome to the boards.
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Postby Dirge » Fri Oct 31, 2003 6:01 am

heehee.. ya, I reread it after I finished it and I was like "geebus.. tis huge!!"
oh well
Thankyas :D
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Postby Technomancer » Fri Oct 31, 2003 11:10 am

You certainly get around. Happy B-day BTW.
The scientific method," Thomas Henry Huxley once wrote, "is nothing but the normal working of the human mind." That is to say, when the mind is working; that is to say further, when it is engaged in corrrecting its mistakes. Taking this point of view, we may conclude that science is not physics, biology, or chemistry—is not even a "subject"—but a moral imperative drawn from a larger narrative whose purpose is to give perspective, balance, and humility to learning.

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Postby Dirge » Fri Oct 31, 2003 1:48 pm

Thank You! :d
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Postby Dirge » Tue Nov 04, 2003 12:39 pm

poke
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Postby Michael » Tue Nov 04, 2003 5:08 pm

I'm to lazy to read all that!
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Postby true_noir_chloe » Wed Nov 05, 2003 3:15 am

I actually laughed out loud at some of your comments. :lol: I would love to read the manga that you're doing with your friend, Lain. You wrote a fantastic bio. :thumb: (I hate that thumb guy - he looks like a dork, but he's the only one who points out "yeah!" moods.)

Sorry, I'm so late in telling you happy birthday - Happy Belated Birthday! :jump:

And, I'm late in telling you hi and it's good to have you here. :)

Look forward to seeing you around.

[size=84][color=seagreen]YOU SEE


You see into the deepest part of me ---

beyond the fog I hide behind.

You cast your light upon the shadows

that stretch like cobwebs in my mind.

You ease the pain when I am hurting,

and morbid visions from my past

pierce into the realm of Reason

as though I danced on blades of glass.

You grant me strength when I have fallen

and, once again, I've lost my way.

You take my hand in Yours and lead me

into the promise of a brand new day.

You bring order to all my chaos,

yet set my well-laid plans awry.

You place me on a firm foundation ---

then give me wings so I can fly.

You sand away my roughened edges

and polish all the dullest parts

until I stand before Your presence...

a newly-sculpted work of art.

You see into the heart within me,

right through my motives and selfish will.

And yet, in spite of all You see

You say You love me even still.


~by D.M.~

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Postby shooraijin » Wed Nov 05, 2003 6:56 am

Hajimemashite! (Late add.)
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Postby Dirge » Wed Nov 05, 2003 4:18 pm

arigatou shooraijin-kun :D
and thank yas Chloe, our comic is actually not a Manga.. nothing to do with a manga whatsoever.. but I just found out that one of Lain's friends KNOWS the dude that wrote Lenore- and could give us AWESOME advertising opps and publishing help! bahahah
and when I said poke up there.. that was not me.. that was silly Andy getting on this and posting something without my knowing.. I found out a few seconds after he posted it.. that beaver nut nibbling toaster root sucker WILL PAY! I shake my fist at him
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Postby Locke » Wed Nov 12, 2003 3:40 pm

whoa u sure like to write!!

heh ... u like to draw!? me too!! wat a coundidink!

that has to be the longest auto ive seen (the first^_6)
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Postby Dirge » Wed Nov 12, 2003 4:16 pm

you should see some of my PM's 9_9
well.. you shouldnt see them.. wait...
I'M TRYING TO MAKE A POINT HERE, JUST GIVE ME A SECOND!!
yes. I love to write and draw, I hope my comics get KNOWN so I advertise to you.
It be called "The Komik with No Name" ..so its actually not called that.. more.. known as that.. @_@ "TKWNN" for short!
yey for advertising to people who wont care or remember!!
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Postby Locke » Wed Nov 12, 2003 6:24 pm

Yey!!
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Postby Dirge » Thu Nov 13, 2003 3:41 pm

Hahah!!!
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Postby Matt » Thu Nov 13, 2003 4:56 pm

Hello? O.o
The God-loving psychopath has returned!
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Postby Dirge » Thu Nov 13, 2003 7:11 pm

o_O hi~
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Postby Fsiphskilm » Thu Nov 13, 2003 8:47 pm

hey i liked your previous avitar.
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Postby Dirge » Fri Nov 14, 2003 3:05 pm

ooh! you read all of it?! what was it I said you'd get- oh ya,
*SQUIRREL POINTS AWARDED TO SOUTHERNSUN!!*
::throws cake; eats confetti::

o_o you liked my last avatar? thats neat! I'll change it back for you then n_n
and ya, being cold and heartless is not a good feeling- I used to be like that for about 3 months- I think i've warmed up a bit more, now that i have friends again
(when I moved from TN to AZ I was alone all summer, I started hating everything, espcially since I hated AZ more than anything)

anyways, I'll try to remember to PM you, and if I forget, then you PM me. I tend to forget things ALOT!
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Postby EireWolf » Fri Nov 21, 2003 12:07 pm

Awriiiiiight! I got Squirrel Points(TM) too!

*chews* .... this confetti's a little stale, ain't it?

Interesting bio. It must be hard to move around so much. You're really lucky to have loving parents though. It beats the alternative.

I've been to AZ... I can see why you hate it. Although, it can be quite beautiful in a thunderstorm... Lightning has a funny way of illuminating things. :lol: (Yeah, I crack me up.)

Oh yeah... In case I didn't say it before, Welcome! :lick:
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Postby Murphy » Fri Nov 21, 2003 10:41 pm

Yay Self-Esteem just went up! Happy Dance! I love you Lauren-Chan!!!!!!! ^^
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