Taking Time to acess...

[acgifford]

Hey guys.^^ Its been a while since I have put up a prayer request, but..here goes. So...I am in my first relationship with a guy. It is a long distance relationship, and he is going to see me as soon as he can. He is earning the money. He loves me to pieces. I was that way at first...but when the "honeymoon stage ended" I started to doubt myself. Okay....the thing is...he fits my build of a man. He didnt like me that way at first. We were friends for 3 months before.(btw...this guy is on CAA.) I prayed about him and I. I really liked him and asked God if there was a chance, that the guy would change his mind and see that the two of us could be awesome together.(idk how to say it.) My political beliefs are unique and Im home schooled, which makes it hard to find a guy. He and I see eye to eye completely. I had never met someone who saw so eye to eye and understood me so well as him and he always made me smile. Eventually I took a liking for him and told him. He said he couldnt see me that way but in a way could see himself liking a girl like me. He and I both agreed finding each other was like one in a million considering our uniqueness. He promised to tell me if his feelings changed and we continued our friendship as before and he and I got closer. He told me he was starting to like me. After a few days we decided that it wouldnt hurt to try. Our reasoning was...How often are you gonna find a person like this? We thought...it would be ridiculous not to try considering that we both liked each other as well. I am his first gf and he is my first bf. We are learning together. We are reading Christian relationship books together to keep us straight. He loves me so much that I get nervous or feel weird cuz Im not used to the affection he is giving me. I know that its normal to doubt. I suppose im just scared of the unknown. He and I talk almost every waking minute either through text or skype or phone. I told him today that I needed some time away from him to get my head straight and to talk to God about it. Be with my family and other friends because I have been falling away from them. All I talk about is my bf. I told him I was overwhelmed and that I stilled loved him...but that I needed a breather. So....finally...to my prayer request. Please pray that I can get my life straight along with my emotions and doubts. I know the Lord wouldnt have lead us together without a purpose. I have been waiting for years for a man to step up and that he fit the build. Now I have him and Im doubting and being stand-offish. I have a feeling he is it and so does my mom. But in order for this to work...I must make up my mind and stop being so skittish.

P.S. The guy that I like is an awesome sweet guy. This isnt really his fault. It's mine. I still love him. I just need wisdom and clarity. I need peace of mind. Thanks guys! And...I apologize if the story doesnt make sense.

[goldenspines]

I will be praying. I think it's good that you're taking time to step back and try to organize your thoughts and priorities, Ac. And if said guy in question is understanding (and I personally think he is), he will give you that time to sort things out with the rest of your life and find that balance.

But remember, you're (both) still young. You have time to think things through and not rush into stuff. So don't get overly freaked out by doubt and take things as they come instead of trying to jump ahead into the far future already. ^_^

[acgifford]

yeah...your right goldy! Thanks. And yes he is very respectful of my decision and even said he might have to in the future.^^ Im giving myself another day to think. He and I are making an attempt to slow down because we think we are moving to fast. ^^ We know it takes time and that we should take the time to get to know each other which is what we are trying to do. He and I have agreed that we shouldnt flirt so much that we dont talk normaly...so...we slowed way down on that. Its a process. I also figured this break would help us slow down further. That is one of the reasons. Not the main reason, but one of them.

[Makachop^^128]

I think its always good to take time away from a gf or bf so you can be your own person, have your own friends, i kinda made that mistake and lost all of him lol. I think everyone has a period near the beginning were you back away a little because its all new and you're not used to it. I don't think its a bad thing, I'll be praying

[K. Ayato]

You're making the right move, ac . I can so understand those feelings you're experiencing 'cause I felt them a lot with my man. He was and still is my first love, and a lot of significance comes about when it's the first person who shows interest in you and for whom you also have feelings. No harm in taking a few steps back. My advice is seeing that you started out as friends, deepen the friendship between you even at this stage in the relationship. Hang in there.

[acgifford]

Thanks for all your prayers you guys. Yesterday instead of waiting an entire day more...It felt right to speak to him again. I figured myself out and I prayed about it before I spoke to him again. It felt right. I think my head is screwed on straighter now. It may sound odd...but the day or so I took away from him felt like forever and lots went on in my head.I really appreciate all the support. Thanks to you all!

K-chan, I agree with you on deepening his and my friendship. ^^ Thank you for the advice.
And...thanks Maka. With what you said, I know I'm not alone.
*hugs the girls*

[Hiryu]

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I like your new avatar too.

[acgifford]

I agree. That thought crossed my mind as well.
The day I spent away from him felt like it lasted for two days.:/ It felt so long.
And thanks!:D