I figured rather than starting a new thread I would just do some updates here.
As far as the medical goes I'm still waiting for a rheumatologist to call me so they can start doing additional tests. At this point they are leaning to auto-immune disorder. Which while I don't want it, it would be a relief to have some answers.
Going more to another area is needing the help of a good psychiatrist. I'm about 90% sure of having bipolar disorder and on medication for it but I need it switched up. All the doctors I've called don't take my insurance so still looking. The problem is that my symptoms in that regard have gotten worse with more hypomanic episodes, hallucinations and impulse problems.
I know that this is probably a bit of a touchy subject (and I'm in therapy too so that parts covered) but some prayer that I'll keep myself safe through this would be appreciated and that I'll find a doctor who can give me the right medicine.
Oh, on a side note, my friend who lost his girlfriend is doing okay. Still grieving but I know the prayers have and are helping him have the strength to get through. Thanks again for praying for him
Thanks all!