Struggling

[TGJesusfreak]

Times by Tenth Avenue North is also an awesome song.

[Ella Edric]

I love you guys so much. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayer.
Things have been looking up quite a bit. My friend told me how I need to learn to fall in love with God. I am having trouble understanding what she meant, but I will say, I finally talked to God fr the first time in months a few days ago. It was hard, because sometimes I feel like He is ignoring me. But the same friend as before told me that even when He is silent He is still there. Im trying to comprehend this concept.
@Airi: I hadnt realized you were going thro this too. Im sorry. Also, many of those songs that have helped me. Theyre some of my favorite songs. You can PM me too if you need it girl!!

[ABlipinTime]

My friend told me how I need to learn to fall in love with God. I am having trouble understanding what she meant, but I will say, I finally talked to God fr the first time in months a few days ago. It was hard, because sometimes I feel like He is ignoring me. But the same friend as before told me that even when He is silent He is still there. Im trying to comprehend this concept.

It's an interesting concept. ("Falling in love" is probably not the best description since love is a choice, not mERELy a feeling) It's sorta like a long-distance relationship... but not. God is always present. God speaks to us in various ways, through our experiences, through other people, and particularly through our conscience - that small, calm inclination within us telling us to do the right thing. Don't worry, God is with you. I'm praying that you begin to sense His presence and love and indeed begin to love Him.

[Kunoichi]

I love you guys so much. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayer.
Things have been looking up quite a bit. My friend told me how I need to learn to fall in love with God. I am having trouble understanding what she meant, but I will say, I finally talked to God fr the first time in months a few days ago. It was hard, because sometimes I feel like He is ignoring me. But the same friend as before told me that even when He is silent He is still there. Im trying to comprehend this concept.
@Airi: I hadnt realized you were going thro this too. Im sorry. Also, many of those songs that have helped me. Theyre some of my favorite songs. You can PM me too if you need it girl!!

This is actually something I am struggling with: Building a loving relationship with God, especially when I don't "feel" Him or honestly, don't want to be with Him (sounds probably a little crazy).

Something that I am learning is that it's a building relationship. You aren't going to just have it "poof" like. That means building trust too. You may not "feel" in love with God for a long time.

I think though as someone stated, you can make a choice to show love though just like you would in real life. (An example is when you don't like a family member and still showing actions of love (even when you don't feel that). So in my opinion when it comes to God, I feel that by talking to Him (and being brutally honest with Him), reading about who He is, and obeying Him is showing Him love. For me, feelings aren't there yet most of the time.

Don't know if any of this makes sense. Will keep praying though.

[Ella Edric]

It's an interesting concept. ("Falling in love" is probably not the best description since love is a choice, not mERELy a feeling) It's sorta like a long-distance relationship... but not. God is always present. God speaks to us in various ways, through our experiences, through other people, and particularly through our conscience - that small, calm inclination within us telling us to do the right thing. Don't worry, God is with you. I'm praying that you begin to sense His presence and love and indeed begin to love Him.

Yeah, that makes sense. Thanks.

This is actually something I am struggling with: Building a loving relationship with God, especially when I don't "feel" Him or honestly, don't want to be with Him (sounds probably a little crazy).

Something that I am learning is that it's a building relationship. You aren't going to just have it "poof" like. That means building trust too. You may not "feel" in love with God for a long time.

I think though as someone stated, you can make a choice to show love though just like you would in real life. (An example is when you don't like a family member and still showing actions of love (even when you don't feel that). So in my opinion when it comes to God, I feel that by talking to Him (and being brutally honest with Him), reading about who He is, and obeying Him is showing Him love. For me, feelings aren't there yet most of the time.

Don't know if any of this makes sense. Will keep praying though.

Thanks. And what you said, makes sense as well. I understand. Sometimes... like, for me it's really hard. In the first place, Im an INCREDIBLE independant person, and always have been. Sometimes, actually alot of times I dont really want God's help. As I would say when I was little, "I wanna do it myself." (add lisp where needed) lol But yeah, I feel like I dont love God enough to want to let Him in... So anyway... thats my struggle right now, is letting God in to lead me, and all that. So yeah.

Anyway, thanks again to you all for your thoughts and prayers.

[Arya Raiin]

Ella... [SIZE="5"]I LOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOU![/SIZE] Always remember that my bestie!!! <3

[Furen]

Ella... [SIZE="5"]I LOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOU![/SIZE] Always remember that my bestie!!! <3

My sentiments exactly

[Ella Edric]

Awwww thank you guys. I love y'all too. ^_^

[samurai10]

Ella, i understand this too. i was having serious depression problems, and i was wondering if God really existed.

feel free to PM whenever you want. i hope everything works out!

and also, I LOVE YOU TO!!!!!*really really wants to hug irl*

[Ella Edric]

Thanks Sammy. *cyber huggle*

[steenajack]

Hey Ella...I just want to say that

I LOVE YOU MY SISTAH IN CHRIST!!!

Never forget that you are loved girl, by God, your family and your friends. You are loved! And you're never alone. *hugs*