Postby Davidizer13 » Fri Sep 10, 2010 3:57 am
Hey Aiden, just reminding you that whatever happens with you or your girlfriend or anything else, you've still got Jesus, who loves you so much that he died for you and would do it again if he had to. You're not alone in your troubles here, either.
I think I kinda know what you're talking about with your friend, thinking you're the one who's supposed to show them Christ's love and hitting brick walls when you actually try to do that. Y'see, a friend of mine is, basically, a hedonist. Everything he does, as far as I can tell, is for his own pleasure, and it's working. He's an exchange student with a seemingly-infinite supply of cash that's paying for his apartment and cruises, he's got a girlfriend both in the US and back home, and if he messes up a class or seven, oh well, his dad will pay for more schooling until he gets it right.
But y'know what? Seeing the things you've been talking about, if given the choice, I'd rather be you than him. All his relationships (again, as far as I can tell) are, once again, all about himself happy or (in my case) trying to keep his grades up so he can stick around in the US. The only reason he got a new girlfriend over here was just so that he could have sex with her, the things he says and does are stupid and offensive, he's wasted three years learning about something he has no interest in; his life's a mess, and he doesn't care, as long as he doesn't have to leave the US.
You, meanwhile, are broken and are honestly seeking out God and His will with everything you've got, and I absolutely believe that you'll find it; God isn't done with you yet. You're doing better at wanting God, hungering for Him, than I am. I'm sick of this boring, punch-clock relationship that I have with God right now, and you've inspired me to change that, to take a deeper look at my life and what I can do about refocusing it on God - thanks! That's proof enough for me that you aren't nearly as bad off as you think you are.
We are loved even though we suck.
Psalms 37:37 (NHEB)
Mark the perfect man, and see the upright, for there is a future for the man of peace.