I have been under attack for quite some time now by the enemy, and God has put me in the base I'm stationed at for the last 9 months to help me learn to serve Him and love Him no matter what the circumstances.
However, as of late, things have been getting harder. It's not that I can't witness to people - to the contrary, I have been bearing more fruit for the Lord lately! But I find myself surrounded by persecutions of all sorts, which hadn't happened before. Sure, someone would occasionally diss me or blaspheme around me, but now they hound me incessantly, either trying to get me to "back off," trying to pick apart my beliefs, or insisting that I give into the wordly and flesh-based lifestyle that they adhere to.
I don't want that, in the slightest, but anyone would get tired after being cahsed by wolves for so long. It's been getting harder to resist 100% the temptations towards pornography. I've been getting irritable, and that's making it harder to show love to these people. And I also see that they aren't just targeting me - they are tearing people around me away from God! Now, see, that just infuriates me.
I'm in a sorry state because of all this. The devil has been on a warpath, and he's found that I'm not budging, so he's laid siege.
I'm asking for your prayer that God will defeat satan in this! And if I can't keep holding on, then may He get me out of here before things turn ugly. I know that, since He has been answering my prayers for other people, and since I am bearing fruit, that I'm not alone. But even so, I need His help, for I can't do it alone. No one can.
Thanks,
Blake