General Depression Prayer Thread
Well God just sent me an undepression opportunity. ^_^ I went into the local bowling alley in town to see how much bowling bags cost, since I recently purchased a bowling ball at a grage sale (was good weight and fit my fingers pretty well). I, the owner, and two league members got to talking about the leagues that they had tuesday mornings, 10:30 (practice), 11-12 (games). And they invited me to be a participant with them. ^_^. If the other members are roughly the same age as them...I'm gonna stick out like a sore thumb...they're like...50+ years old. So, I'm gonna do it anyway. It'll give me a reason to get up in the morning.
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[color=DeepSkyBlue] "He lives in you. He lives in me. [/color]He watches over everything we see.
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
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bakura_fan - Posts: 1289
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Well, I'm glad SOMETHING'S happening!
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Blitzkrieg1701 - Posts: 1884
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You can (and usually do) learn a ton from older people!
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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well decided to stay at my job - 8 year long career.
still no money....looking towards being evicted from our apartment...praise god that we have a friends house to stay at if we need to and we keep on having food in our bellies..even if it does mean a lot of ramen noodles...
car still broken
still no money....looking towards being evicted from our apartment...praise god that we have a friends house to stay at if we need to and we keep on having food in our bellies..even if it does mean a lot of ramen noodles...
car still broken
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Have fun bowling, bakura_fan. Maybe they'll share some tricks of the trade 
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K. Ayato - Posts: 3881
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Still praying, Kunoichi!
[font="Book Antiqua"][color="Purple"]For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this: that one died for all, therefore all died; and he that died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf. II Corinthians 5:14-15[/color][/font]
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Blitzkrieg1701 - Posts: 1884
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I feel like all our financial problems are my fault. I feel that all this pain and suffering is what I deserve. I deserve it all! I'm such a loser. I want to just be erased from this world. Everything good and bad I've done, gone from people's minds. every memory of me, gone, as if I never existed.
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[color=DeepSkyBlue] "He lives in you. He lives in me. [/color]He watches over everything we see.
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
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bakura_fan - Posts: 1289
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As if you never existed? Hon, I hope this doesn't mean you're thinking of ending it. Please tell us it isn't. We're all praying for you, hon. Don't give up now.
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K. Ayato - Posts: 3881
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no...too much a wimp for anything like that...
As in, anyone that I affected, anyone who knew me, saw me, even for a second, woudl forget, or be replaced by someone else.
I just keep hoping that when i die God gives me the option to exist or not.
As in, anyone that I affected, anyone who knew me, saw me, even for a second, woudl forget, or be replaced by someone else.
I just keep hoping that when i die God gives me the option to exist or not.
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[color=DeepSkyBlue] "He lives in you. He lives in me. [/color]He watches over everything we see.
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
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bakura_fan - Posts: 1289
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You know something? You're right, more than you think. We all deserve pain and suffering. In fact, every one of us deserves ten times the misery and unhappiness we experience now. Every mistake and wrong choice, big or little, regarding ANYTHING, can be counted as a blight on the perfect record we would need in order to stand blameless before God. Satan knows this VERY well, and he does everything he possibly can to remind us of it. He wants us all to know that we're complete losers not worth a thing, and he's not wrong.
But you know something else? It doesn't matter. Christ has already covered it. Everything we've done, everything we're doing, everything we WILL do to ourselves or anyone else, it's all taken care of for anyone who accepts Him as their savior. All that guilt, even though we really DO deserve every last bit of it, just plan doesn't belong to us anymore. That guilty person we once were is gone now, no matter how much we may try to act like him or her. No matter what, when God looks at us, all He sees is His blameless Son.
No, that doesn't mean that things are instantly roses and rainbows now. Yes, there are immediate consequence to our actions that still linger, and many times they absolutely suck. Sure, it may seem that everything would be better if those things could just be wiped absolutely clean off the face of history. But here's the thing: God loves doing weird, freaky, utterly incomprehensible things, because they only SEEM weird, freaky, and utterly incomprehensible to us with our limited understanding. God is bigger than even the biggest and most painful of our mistakes. He's already forgiven them and taken away the guilt of them, so we can't even begin to know what He might be planning to do with them. Even the most awful thing to us could end up being a huge blessing to someone else in the hands of God. Yeah, I know it's trite and Sunday School, but it's happened before. In fact, it's happened a LOT.
Father, I lift up my sister to you now. I won't try to belittle her financial struggles, and I ask that You will ease them and straighten them out however You see fit. However, more than that, I pray that you will take away this guilt and frustration that is assaulting her now. Please, banish these thoughts and accusations from Your enemy and protect her from their ever returning. I beg to to let her know peace and joy the likes of which only comes directly from You. I pray that You will give her absolute certainty of how precious she is to You, and a faith even she can't understand in what You are capable of doing in our lives. What's more, I pray for those of us on this forum, that You will equip us to minister to her, and that that you will lift up others to be in her life and support her in those ways we cannot. Please, Father, make Your love known to Your children.
In the name of our savior Jesus Christ I pray
Amen
But you know something else? It doesn't matter. Christ has already covered it. Everything we've done, everything we're doing, everything we WILL do to ourselves or anyone else, it's all taken care of for anyone who accepts Him as their savior. All that guilt, even though we really DO deserve every last bit of it, just plan doesn't belong to us anymore. That guilty person we once were is gone now, no matter how much we may try to act like him or her. No matter what, when God looks at us, all He sees is His blameless Son.
No, that doesn't mean that things are instantly roses and rainbows now. Yes, there are immediate consequence to our actions that still linger, and many times they absolutely suck. Sure, it may seem that everything would be better if those things could just be wiped absolutely clean off the face of history. But here's the thing: God loves doing weird, freaky, utterly incomprehensible things, because they only SEEM weird, freaky, and utterly incomprehensible to us with our limited understanding. God is bigger than even the biggest and most painful of our mistakes. He's already forgiven them and taken away the guilt of them, so we can't even begin to know what He might be planning to do with them. Even the most awful thing to us could end up being a huge blessing to someone else in the hands of God. Yeah, I know it's trite and Sunday School, but it's happened before. In fact, it's happened a LOT.
Father, I lift up my sister to you now. I won't try to belittle her financial struggles, and I ask that You will ease them and straighten them out however You see fit. However, more than that, I pray that you will take away this guilt and frustration that is assaulting her now. Please, banish these thoughts and accusations from Your enemy and protect her from their ever returning. I beg to to let her know peace and joy the likes of which only comes directly from You. I pray that You will give her absolute certainty of how precious she is to You, and a faith even she can't understand in what You are capable of doing in our lives. What's more, I pray for those of us on this forum, that You will equip us to minister to her, and that that you will lift up others to be in her life and support her in those ways we cannot. Please, Father, make Your love known to Your children.
In the name of our savior Jesus Christ I pray
Amen
[font="Book Antiqua"][color="Purple"]For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this: that one died for all, therefore all died; and he that died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf. II Corinthians 5:14-15[/color][/font]
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Blitzkrieg1701 - Posts: 1884
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Thanks Blitz for that great word. It was truly God-breathed. It also hit home for me because was feeling pretty gulity this evening. But God made me see my shortcomings for what they are through your post. Thanks.
bakura_fan, I felt that way just about everyday of my college life, and for much of high school. I didn't want to die per se, I just wanted to be erased from existence becuase I though it would be in everyone's best interests. Everyone would be much better off if I were not in their hearts and minds. I felt like a complete disappointment and people had enough problems without me bringing them down with me.
But God showed me I was wrong. First, because life is like a one-way ticket - once you're born there is no going back. Even if everyone in the world forgot about me (which is impossible because the smallest thing I do has an impact on everyone on this planet) God most certainly would never forget me. Namely because he's in me (1 John 4:4). We are never alone (Romans 14:7-8).
And secondly everyone else is in the same boat as me. No one is righteous (Romans 3:10, 23). I wholeheartedly agree that we are all worthless - but only without Jesus Christ. This notion greatly raised my self-esteem. I am nothing, a nobody. But with Jesus I am invincible. I will live forever in Him because He is life. I would deserve to die everyday, but thanks be to God and the love Jesus showed on the cross. I deserve life because I believe in Him.
So please, choose not only to exist, but to live well. Our lives were bought at a extremely high cost. It's wrong to make light of that, just like I did years ago. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty - just showing you once again that we are very similar. I'll be praying that God saves your life, just like He did mine.
bakura_fan, I felt that way just about everyday of my college life, and for much of high school. I didn't want to die per se, I just wanted to be erased from existence becuase I though it would be in everyone's best interests. Everyone would be much better off if I were not in their hearts and minds. I felt like a complete disappointment and people had enough problems without me bringing them down with me.
But God showed me I was wrong. First, because life is like a one-way ticket - once you're born there is no going back. Even if everyone in the world forgot about me (which is impossible because the smallest thing I do has an impact on everyone on this planet) God most certainly would never forget me. Namely because he's in me (1 John 4:4). We are never alone (Romans 14:7-8).
And secondly everyone else is in the same boat as me. No one is righteous (Romans 3:10, 23). I wholeheartedly agree that we are all worthless - but only without Jesus Christ. This notion greatly raised my self-esteem. I am nothing, a nobody. But with Jesus I am invincible. I will live forever in Him because He is life. I would deserve to die everyday, but thanks be to God and the love Jesus showed on the cross. I deserve life because I believe in Him.
So please, choose not only to exist, but to live well. Our lives were bought at a extremely high cost. It's wrong to make light of that, just like I did years ago. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty - just showing you once again that we are very similar. I'll be praying that God saves your life, just like He did mine.
"Lives are power." - Kamille Bidan
"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" - Christ the Lord (John 11:25-26)
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. - James 1:2-4.
Remember - the Lord will be with you - always.
"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" - Christ the Lord (John 11:25-26)
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. - James 1:2-4.
Remember - the Lord will be with you - always.
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Kamille - Posts: 251
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I'm just plain and simply put, tired of living. I don't care about what He wants anymore...cause..there is nothing...that's it. nothingness.
It's like...no matter where I go or what I do, I want a change of scenery...but I want to find that one place where I won't feel this way...and since I haven't found it yet I figure all I'll ever do is move move move move move. I'm just sick of it...sick of everything on this planet...
edit: man...I feel so pathetic...all you guys are trying to do is help me and i'm just being all negative about it...I'm gonna stop posting after this. I'll probably lurk a bit....but...thank you for your prayers CAA...goodbye.
It's like...no matter where I go or what I do, I want a change of scenery...but I want to find that one place where I won't feel this way...and since I haven't found it yet I figure all I'll ever do is move move move move move. I'm just sick of it...sick of everything on this planet...
edit: man...I feel so pathetic...all you guys are trying to do is help me and i'm just being all negative about it...I'm gonna stop posting after this. I'll probably lurk a bit....but...thank you for your prayers CAA...goodbye.
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[color=DeepSkyBlue] "He lives in you. He lives in me. [/color]He watches over everything we see.
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
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bakura_fan - Posts: 1289
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Before u think of leaving, I just want to say something....It's often the people who think they are not significant who are the ones that their friends can't imagine living without......
Though you may not realise it, there probably is someone in your life to whom you mean the world to. And even if there wasn't anyone, u still mean the world to Jesus.
...And He wants to mean the world to you.....You just have to let Him.....I will keep praying for u......
Though you may not realise it, there probably is someone in your life to whom you mean the world to. And even if there wasn't anyone, u still mean the world to Jesus.
...And He wants to mean the world to you.....You just have to let Him.....I will keep praying for u......
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Danderson - Posts: 1277
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bakura_fan wrote:I'm just plain and simply put, tired of living. I don't care about what He wants anymore...cause..there is nothing...that's it. nothingness.
It's like...no matter where I go or what I do, I want a change of scenery...but I want to find that one place where I won't feel this way...and since I haven't found it yet I figure all I'll ever do is move move move move move. I'm just sick of it...sick of everything on this planet...
edit: man...I feel so pathetic...all you guys are trying to do is help me and i'm just being all negative about it...I'm gonna stop posting after this. I'll probably lurk a bit....but...thank you for your prayers CAA...goodbye.
Lurking is OK. Fellowship is better.
"Those who believe will be saved...so they say. Get it?"
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Sister Rosette Christopher
Sorry ladies, already married to HitomiYuriko , but it took both our efforts to come up with daughter Althaia
Please use the Haibane Renmei Lesson Plan
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SP1 - Posts: 861
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...I don't really have many friends...and the one's I do have I rarely talk to, not from lack of trying just..different work schedules and what not. Well, God did help me feel a little better with financial stuff today. You see, since I was invited to sub for the bowling league on tues mornings, I've been wondering how to get bowling shoes cheap so I won't have to keep renting them. Well, I went to a garage sale today *one that i had been to last week* and they had some new stuff. One was a bowling bag, with a bowling ball, and shoes, and bowling ball cleaning kit, and first aid wrap, and a towel for $5. The shoes were a perfect fit, and the color I wanted (black with red writing). The bowling ball is too heavy for me and the spacing is too far apart so I won't be using it, but the bag is nice (the lady who owns the bowlign ally gave me an old bag that someone had dropped off, it's nice too.) So, now I ahve everything I need, my own bowling ball (from a prior yard sale), bag(s), and shoes. ^_^ Also, bowled with the owner (free game and shoe rental since I hadn't bowled in over a year) because she wanted me to have practice. our scores for the two games were (me/her) 120/135 and 145/130. ^^, she was plesently surprised at my scores for how long i hadn't bowled for.
So anyway, thanks for your prayers guys. I really can feel the support you guys have been showing to me. *huggles each of you*
So anyway, thanks for your prayers guys. I really can feel the support you guys have been showing to me. *huggles each of you*
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[color=DeepSkyBlue] "He lives in you. He lives in me. [/color]He watches over everything we see.
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
Into the water. Into the truth. [color=Yellow][color=DeepSkyBlue]In your reflection, He lives in you." - He lives in you chorus[/color][/color]
"Slow, love, slow. Time's so fast. Now goes quickly, see Now it's past!
Soon will come, Soon will last. Wait." [color=Yellow]- Wait (sweeney todd) [/color]
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bakura_fan - Posts: 1289
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We'll miss you. Take all the time you need away from here, but remember we're all praying for you .
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*Explosion goes off in the movie*
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K. Ayato: Perfectly.
Prayer sister of kaji, sticksabuser, Angel37, and Doubleshadow --Love you guys!
*Explosion goes off in the movie*
mechana2015: Does that answer your question?
K. Ayato: Perfectly.
Prayer sister of kaji, sticksabuser, Angel37, and Doubleshadow --Love you guys!
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K. Ayato - Posts: 3881
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Hey, don;t be afraid to vent what you're feeling! Emotions tend to get even worse if they bottled up an unexpressed.
Either way, though, we'll keep prayin' for ya!
Either way, though, we'll keep prayin' for ya!
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Blitzkrieg1701 - Posts: 1884
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Hey guys....
God is with me...this I know...contrary to the demon's lies...I will not waiver in this respect...although I sin and am not shameless...May God forgive me...so I press on.
Praise the Almighty Father..thank you for all that you do
and may God help me with my sins..may He forgive me for the Vice of Temptation that I fall into time and time again....The Lord is so merciful..May His Name be Praised forever and ever! Amen
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Bakura sama...I know how you feel....well maybe not exactly...but I understand the financial struggles..and not to mention blaming yourself for them..however God tells us to not worry about what food we will have to eat or whether we will have clothes on our back...sister, I promise you on faith alone..that the Lord provides in his own ways..and even though I have not had a positive account balance or car for over a month..I have had food in my belly and clothes on my back. Praise God
and sister, I pray for your struggles as well!
God is with me...this I know...contrary to the demon's lies...I will not waiver in this respect...although I sin and am not shameless...May God forgive me...so I press on.
Praise the Almighty Father..thank you for all that you do
and may God help me with my sins..may He forgive me for the Vice of Temptation that I fall into time and time again....The Lord is so merciful..May His Name be Praised forever and ever! Amen
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Bakura sama...I know how you feel....well maybe not exactly...but I understand the financial struggles..and not to mention blaming yourself for them..however God tells us to not worry about what food we will have to eat or whether we will have clothes on our back...sister, I promise you on faith alone..that the Lord provides in his own ways..and even though I have not had a positive account balance or car for over a month..I have had food in my belly and clothes on my back. Praise God
and sister, I pray for your struggles as well!
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Kunoichi - Posts: 1219
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*sighs* Alright, time to come out. I have been feeling a little depressed lately, although I try to hide it from friends and family, I feel like I'm falling, and there is no safe place to land. My family is having some issues between my sister and her husband, and then I feel kind of off with my friends. (except for one special person) I just feel depressed, becuase I come home to crying and argueing, and alot of phone calls from an angry person, And I'm just getting near rock bottom. I've had stuff like this before. I've never talked to people about it before. except when I was near breaking point. I just don't know what to do any more. 
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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chelle0227 - Posts: 163
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I understand. I know what's it's like to come home to stuff like that. I don't know what to say other than draw your strength from God. It's during times like these that all you can do is cling to Jesus --you have no where else to turn, no other hope. So cling to Him. He is with you in this and will stay with you. He understands.
Keep us updated. I pray that God will just overshadow you with His presence in this situation.
Keep us updated. I pray that God will just overshadow you with His presence in this situation.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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- Location: Texas
*sighs*
Hi everyone, it's more of the same from me. XD
In terms of news, there's really nothing new. I'm still alone in the real world and depending on my online friends for support.
I'm only half-depressed, and mostly scared right now. But I feel this post fits either way.
While I'm trying to remain hopeful with my own current plans, I've been given a lot of warning from my parents and a message that overall, this is left to my own decision.
I've been really shaken up about it however, and now I can't seem to get my mind out of the idea that failure will be the only result.
Please pray for God to continue to guide me, and that I'll be able to serve Him to the best of my abilities as I continue to walk through my own trials.
More tomorrow when I can post it.
Hi everyone, it's more of the same from me. XD
In terms of news, there's really nothing new. I'm still alone in the real world and depending on my online friends for support.
I'm only half-depressed, and mostly scared right now. But I feel this post fits either way.
While I'm trying to remain hopeful with my own current plans, I've been given a lot of warning from my parents and a message that overall, this is left to my own decision.
I've been really shaken up about it however, and now I can't seem to get my mind out of the idea that failure will be the only result.
Please pray for God to continue to guide me, and that I'll be able to serve Him to the best of my abilities as I continue to walk through my own trials.
More tomorrow when I can post it.
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Alexander - Posts: 877
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- Location: Sometimes I wish I honestly knew.
Okay everyone. I have to admit...I'm scared of myself, as in, pure terror. As much as I want to help everyone and pray individually for every person, I can't bring myself to it. I've been closing myself up in a selfish little hole.
I've become something I never foresaw me becoming. I really want to minister and help, but I just continue to procrastinate it. "You've been gone for nine days!" I say to myself "There's fifty posts here, and eighty posts there, with no time to pray for all these posts between two threads!"
I...it's just so selfish of me.
I've been very up and down lately, very low downs and mediumish highs...I fear I'm becoming Manic. At my last counseling session I had to explain my pornography addiction. In the end she said simply "Well, it seems like you have it under control now..." and I wanted to scream "NO! You DON'T understand!" I mean, I'm over 100 days from looking at it, from M...but daily it is a battle, and one that's recently haunted me beyond pain and pressure. I want so much to just give in already...
Images are starting to come back, ever since I told her that I've been blocking them out, now they're back, and I've been entertaining the thoughts again...
I want out!
I've shaved only twice since I cut myself...afraid of the razorblade. There was a day, not too long ago, where I literally stood in the shower, blade at my wrist. But I tore it away before making the Second. There are days when I wonder if I'm even a believer. I know what I am dealing with is nothing compared to my fellow siblings....you guys struggling financially and doing everything just to...just to survive. Am I a fool?
Father God, give us peace, and give us hope. Right now there is no time to go for individual prayers, but I know You know our every need, and You are here when we are being tempted. I...I thank You for how large this has already become, even in my absence. Prehaps it is for the better that I am not here all the time. But Lord, don't keep me silent forever. Give me the strength to quit procrastinating, these people need to hear words of encouragement! For every person here, bless them this week. Allow them to give up the burdens they may be facing...Oh God...I'm just speechless. Why aren't I in tears after reading these things? Please, break down my pride, I'm no better than them...
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!
I've just been under attack so much. My grades are beginning to slip, very slightly, but slipping nonetheless. It makes me angry at myself. Makes me want to do more. But now that I'm being controlled, and not by my own desires, I can't work nearly as much as before, and that goes both for school and this wonderful ministry...
Maybe I'll go force myself to write in my prayer notebook for y'all, just so I don't feel so down about it....I need to get my mind away.
I've become something I never foresaw me becoming. I really want to minister and help, but I just continue to procrastinate it. "You've been gone for nine days!" I say to myself "There's fifty posts here, and eighty posts there, with no time to pray for all these posts between two threads!"
I...it's just so selfish of me.
I've been very up and down lately, very low downs and mediumish highs...I fear I'm becoming Manic. At my last counseling session I had to explain my pornography addiction. In the end she said simply "Well, it seems like you have it under control now..." and I wanted to scream "NO! You DON'T understand!" I mean, I'm over 100 days from looking at it, from M...but daily it is a battle, and one that's recently haunted me beyond pain and pressure. I want so much to just give in already...
Images are starting to come back, ever since I told her that I've been blocking them out, now they're back, and I've been entertaining the thoughts again...
I want out!
I've shaved only twice since I cut myself...afraid of the razorblade. There was a day, not too long ago, where I literally stood in the shower, blade at my wrist. But I tore it away before making the Second. There are days when I wonder if I'm even a believer. I know what I am dealing with is nothing compared to my fellow siblings....you guys struggling financially and doing everything just to...just to survive. Am I a fool?
Father God, give us peace, and give us hope. Right now there is no time to go for individual prayers, but I know You know our every need, and You are here when we are being tempted. I...I thank You for how large this has already become, even in my absence. Prehaps it is for the better that I am not here all the time. But Lord, don't keep me silent forever. Give me the strength to quit procrastinating, these people need to hear words of encouragement! For every person here, bless them this week. Allow them to give up the burdens they may be facing...Oh God...I'm just speechless. Why aren't I in tears after reading these things? Please, break down my pride, I'm no better than them...
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!
I've just been under attack so much. My grades are beginning to slip, very slightly, but slipping nonetheless. It makes me angry at myself. Makes me want to do more. But now that I'm being controlled, and not by my own desires, I can't work nearly as much as before, and that goes both for school and this wonderful ministry...
Maybe I'll go force myself to write in my prayer notebook for y'all, just so I don't feel so down about it....I need to get my mind away.
~*~ Blessed to be Ryosuke's wife!
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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- Location: Michigan
Okami, I've been there too. Those are things I still struggle with from time to time. The healing process takes considerable time. You will make progress. Just trust that God's grace is sufficient for you even when you fail and fall into old patterns. God is still there --His blood covers your sins --trust that His grace is all you need and keep going. Keep up the good fight.
Keep us updated and check in from time to time and let us know how you're doing.
Keep us updated and check in from time to time and let us know how you're doing.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
- Joined: Mon Aug 01, 2005 9:55 am
- Location: Texas
Okami-sama..
I'll tell you a story...
I was talking to a friend...suddenly I felt like I was losing control over my body..I could tell their was a spiritual battle. A spirit of Insanity, Death and Suicide began to haunt me.
Giving me images of my death.....of killing myself.
Then some really wierd stuff happened, things started to open and close...dogs started to howl and then I lost control. i held a knife to my wrist..the person was still on the phone..praying for me...I could barely hold on to my own sanity...nearly slit my wrist. I managed to toss the knife across the room and everything stopped.
Barely able to walk, I asked the Lord God "why! Why would you allow one of your beloved to nearly die!?"
He responded simply, "Go and fear no more."
Okami-sama....you are on a spiritual battle. THe demons that haunt you...they fear you and know you are a strong prayer warrior, so they haunt you more to take those prayers from your lips. Have faith sister, even in the bottom of hell, the light shines through and everyone here see's your light.
We must go through pain..we must go through torment..we must see the depths of our own humanity and we must die to ourselves....because that is how we will become as Jesus wants us to be. He himself had to die...so must we.
My sister, as far as comparing your struggle to others...my dear dear sister, please know that you are struggling a struggle that is hard for you where as others may not find it hard...but what they struggle with, is hard for them and may not be for you....it does not matter the nature of the struggle..only that you struggle with it.
God bless you okami-sama. I pray these words encourage you in some way. Remember, Greater is He who is in You than he who is in the world. God will never leave you ....you can count on it!
I'll tell you a story...
I was talking to a friend...suddenly I felt like I was losing control over my body..I could tell their was a spiritual battle. A spirit of Insanity, Death and Suicide began to haunt me.
Giving me images of my death.....of killing myself.
Then some really wierd stuff happened, things started to open and close...dogs started to howl and then I lost control. i held a knife to my wrist..the person was still on the phone..praying for me...I could barely hold on to my own sanity...nearly slit my wrist. I managed to toss the knife across the room and everything stopped.
Barely able to walk, I asked the Lord God "why! Why would you allow one of your beloved to nearly die!?"
He responded simply, "Go and fear no more."
Okami-sama....you are on a spiritual battle. THe demons that haunt you...they fear you and know you are a strong prayer warrior, so they haunt you more to take those prayers from your lips. Have faith sister, even in the bottom of hell, the light shines through and everyone here see's your light.
We must go through pain..we must go through torment..we must see the depths of our own humanity and we must die to ourselves....because that is how we will become as Jesus wants us to be. He himself had to die...so must we.
My sister, as far as comparing your struggle to others...my dear dear sister, please know that you are struggling a struggle that is hard for you where as others may not find it hard...but what they struggle with, is hard for them and may not be for you....it does not matter the nature of the struggle..only that you struggle with it.
God bless you okami-sama. I pray these words encourage you in some way. Remember, Greater is He who is in You than he who is in the world. God will never leave you ....you can count on it!
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Kunoichi - Posts: 1219
- Joined: Sat Mar 31, 2007 8:18 pm
- Location: Everywhere But Nowhere
I want to thank everyone who is praying for me about my situation.
I just need to get something out. I am really struggling --I am so emotionally exhausted. I never expected the healing process to be easy, but I wasn't prepared for how difficult it is. My emotions have been running the full gamut --from anger at why no one did anything when I was abused--why they just let my mother abuse me --why wasn't I taken out of the situation?
Then my emotions go to deep sadness --I've been having flashbacks of the abuse the last few days (my last one was months ago). It's been very unsettling. They come out of nowhere.
Then I start to feel positive. I know God has a purpose --maybe there are other people I can minister to because I went through that. Maybe I can empathize more with other people because I have experienced deep suffering.
Then I feel sad for my mom. She had a pretty abusive childhood too. She has so much bitterness in her. I pray that God will draw her to Himself and bind her wounds.
I've been having random crying spells. And random outbursts of anger (like throwing stuff kind of anger).
It's like my emotions can't make up their mind. They have been changing constantly. I think it's just part of the healing process and that they will sort out in time.
Please pray for me. It's obvious this is a spiritual battle. I want God to make me whole again. I can't do anything but cling to Him. He's my only hope.
I just need to get something out. I am really struggling --I am so emotionally exhausted. I never expected the healing process to be easy, but I wasn't prepared for how difficult it is. My emotions have been running the full gamut --from anger at why no one did anything when I was abused--why they just let my mother abuse me --why wasn't I taken out of the situation?
Then my emotions go to deep sadness --I've been having flashbacks of the abuse the last few days (my last one was months ago). It's been very unsettling. They come out of nowhere.
Then I start to feel positive. I know God has a purpose --maybe there are other people I can minister to because I went through that. Maybe I can empathize more with other people because I have experienced deep suffering.
Then I feel sad for my mom. She had a pretty abusive childhood too. She has so much bitterness in her. I pray that God will draw her to Himself and bind her wounds.
I've been having random crying spells. And random outbursts of anger (like throwing stuff kind of anger).
It's like my emotions can't make up their mind. They have been changing constantly. I think it's just part of the healing process and that they will sort out in time.
Please pray for me. It's obvious this is a spiritual battle. I want God to make me whole again. I can't do anything but cling to Him. He's my only hope.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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- Location: Texas
Sheenar-sama,
I can not began to understand your abuse...nor truly why I can understand of the why's of it. However, I can only offer the hope that God see's what you went through and he will give you rest from it.
We live in a Fallen World, one that is run by Satan himself and Satan does all he can to torment the souls of God. What better way for him to get back at God then to torture His children?
I pray now that the spirits that are tormenting you are bound and casted away from you. You have that power and authority through the blood of Jesus to do so yourself...if you so wish it. It does not mean they will never be there...but they will not have a hold on you.
Praying for you *hugs
Kunoichi
I can not began to understand your abuse...nor truly why I can understand of the why's of it. However, I can only offer the hope that God see's what you went through and he will give you rest from it.
We live in a Fallen World, one that is run by Satan himself and Satan does all he can to torment the souls of God. What better way for him to get back at God then to torture His children?
I pray now that the spirits that are tormenting you are bound and casted away from you. You have that power and authority through the blood of Jesus to do so yourself...if you so wish it. It does not mean they will never be there...but they will not have a hold on you.
Praying for you *hugs
Kunoichi
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Kunoichi - Posts: 1219
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Brother's and sister's in Christ,
I ask for prayer again....
I'm struggling..although the medicine has helped...sometimes these thoughts of suicide still come up out of nowhere. I know it is Satan and demons...for only they whisper those temptations to my mind...please pray God will gve me a hedge of protection from Satan's abuse so I can rest and gather strength for a little while.
I ask for prayer again....
I'm struggling..although the medicine has helped...sometimes these thoughts of suicide still come up out of nowhere. I know it is Satan and demons...for only they whisper those temptations to my mind...please pray God will gve me a hedge of protection from Satan's abuse so I can rest and gather strength for a little while.
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Kunoichi - Posts: 1219
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- Location: Everywhere But Nowhere
I'm praying for all you guys....Unfortunetly, life is rough, and the road that is right for u is often the hardest...But remember that that's not God's fault....instead remember that He is willing to get you through it....
Also, there've been a few worries I've been struggling with myself. Baisically, tonight my parents and I looked over what options I have in my future after I graduate High School (which I know realise we should've done a while ago), and it just overwhelmed me that any path I'll take will put me in a situation that I'm not confortable with.
To back up, I'm wanting to go into film (writing, directing, editing) mainly becuase I have felt for a long time now that that is career to which God has called me. Yet, the difficult part of that is that it's such a secular industry that I'm afraid that I might eventually become someone I don't know. Also, part of me would rather stay in one place, become part of a community and maybe even raise a family some day...But that is just so hard to manage if I were to go into this feild becuase it's not only time consuming, but your constantly traveling too.....But I really can't see myself doing anything else for Him....
I know that by myself that I will never get there, but with Him in my life, filling me with His spirit, that goal will not seem all to impossible.....It's just easy to forget that during times of stress......
Also, there've been a few worries I've been struggling with myself. Baisically, tonight my parents and I looked over what options I have in my future after I graduate High School (which I know realise we should've done a while ago), and it just overwhelmed me that any path I'll take will put me in a situation that I'm not confortable with.
To back up, I'm wanting to go into film (writing, directing, editing) mainly becuase I have felt for a long time now that that is career to which God has called me. Yet, the difficult part of that is that it's such a secular industry that I'm afraid that I might eventually become someone I don't know. Also, part of me would rather stay in one place, become part of a community and maybe even raise a family some day...But that is just so hard to manage if I were to go into this feild becuase it's not only time consuming, but your constantly traveling too.....But I really can't see myself doing anything else for Him....
I know that by myself that I will never get there, but with Him in my life, filling me with His spirit, that goal will not seem all to impossible.....It's just easy to forget that during times of stress......
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Danderson - Posts: 1277
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Guys...
Need some prayer...
I'm trying not to get down on things...nor complain...
God has been faithful..but it is hard...I have not been paid in two months and my boyfriend has been buying all my food, and taking me to work and dryiving me home...I feel so guilty over this but he just keeps telling me not to worry about it....
Guilt is eating at me...and yet I can't get another job..this is what I want to do and I'll go crazy working more than i already am (already working 70 hours a week)...
I'm not sure how long our food is going to last either..he's running low on money..so much so we have to move cuz we can't pay rent...
Please pray!
Need some prayer...
I'm trying not to get down on things...nor complain...
God has been faithful..but it is hard...I have not been paid in two months and my boyfriend has been buying all my food, and taking me to work and dryiving me home...I feel so guilty over this but he just keeps telling me not to worry about it....
Guilt is eating at me...and yet I can't get another job..this is what I want to do and I'll go crazy working more than i already am (already working 70 hours a week)...
I'm not sure how long our food is going to last either..he's running low on money..so much so we have to move cuz we can't pay rent...
Please pray!
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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Kunoichi - Posts: 1219
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I should go and pray right now...for all of you, and myself...but I feel the need to quick steal time and post.
My head hurts, and I'm so unsure. I need urgent prayer because of this craziness. Fear, anxiety, I'm just so confused. It's been a month since then, and I feel no different. I want to change, I want to be faithful again...but I don't even know where to begin. Any Bible reading recommendations would be the best...because I've been from Old to New Testament, and can't stick to one section or book and just read to get my mind on something else, as much as I want to....but it seems when someone else tells me to do something, I am more likely to comply....
*glances at her prayer/life notebook and sighs*
The only thing keeping me going is the faded light that was once my blazing faith, the want to go back to that....I want to serve Him, but I can't when I don't know where to begin.
Anger is only getting in my way...
My head hurts, and I'm so unsure. I need urgent prayer because of this craziness. Fear, anxiety, I'm just so confused. It's been a month since then, and I feel no different. I want to change, I want to be faithful again...but I don't even know where to begin. Any Bible reading recommendations would be the best...because I've been from Old to New Testament, and can't stick to one section or book and just read to get my mind on something else, as much as I want to....but it seems when someone else tells me to do something, I am more likely to comply....
*glances at her prayer/life notebook and sighs*
The only thing keeping me going is the faded light that was once my blazing faith, the want to go back to that....I want to serve Him, but I can't when I don't know where to begin.
Anger is only getting in my way...
~*~ Blessed to be Ryosuke's wife!
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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