Prayer over doubt

[Momo-P]

Lately I've been feeling less close to God. I know He's there, so it's nothing real severe, but I don't have that same passion for Him I did sometime ago, and every so often I start worrying and thinking. Like "what if He's not the true God?" and then I panic and just tell myself to shove it away, but...I dunno. It just bothers me.

Then I get moments where I feel like I don't believe at all, which I know isn't true because I totally feel this sudden uneasiness within myself, like something is very, very wrong about it. My only explanation for that is the Holy Spirit saying that's not true, but it doesn't change the fact I hate these thoughts. I want them to go away. I want to feel close to my Lord and Savior again.

Another thing that sucks about this is that everytime this happens to me (I get these annoying moments of doubt like...every few months), I always have to resort to some annoying breakdown that involves crying and stuff. It isn't till after this I'll feel closer to God. Mind you it's nice to feel with Him again, but it's starting to tick me off. Why can't I just feel close all the time? I'm sick of doubting and I'm sick of having to feel like crap and cry just so everything is alright again.

*sighs* Prayers would be appreciated....

[Jingo Jaden]

Just before I turned 18 I feelt doubt for quite some long time. Your decription pretty much fit alot of what I was thinking back then. And how it so often reappears is strange, for me it did this in a short, but intensified period.

However, I am more sure of God beeing real and good than of my own existance. And the love which is great. Doubt come and go, we got to remember that and stand firm in faith. For me it became much easier to walk in faith a while after the doubt kicked in. So I guess it is sort of rideing out the storm at times.

Either way, I will defidently pray for you, pray that you will feel close to God and that doubt will disappear. God bless you

[Anna Mae]

I panic and just tell myself to shove it away, but...I dunno. It just bothers me.

It's okay to have doubts. Addressing your doubts is one way to prevent your faith from becoming dogma. Like Jaden Mental said, coming through them will strengthen your beliefs.

Why can't I just feel close all the time?

I can relate in a major way. The thing is, God knows what's best. We need to seek God yet be willing to accept what He gives us. I'm not saying that we shouldn't passionately seek to become closer to God. However, relationship with God is a two-way street. We have to trust that God will relate to us in the way that is best for us. Yes, I know how frustrating waiting can be, but it is faith.

I'm sick of doubting and I'm sick of having to feel like crap and cry just so everything is alright again.

While cycles in our spiritual journeys are alright, don't try to control God. For example, thinking (examine your subconscious as well), I want to feel closer to God than I do right now, so I'll have another fit. would be unhealthy. To quote the Chronicles of Narnia, "Remember, He's not a tame lion."

I will be praying for you. Be sure to keep us posted on how things are going.

[Danderson]

Then I get moments where I feel like I don't believe at all, which I know isn't true because I totally feel this sudden uneasiness within myself, like something is very, very wrong about it. My only explanation for that is the Holy Spirit saying that's not true, but it doesn't change the fact I hate these thoughts. I want them to go away. I want to feel close to my Lord and Savior again.

Here's what I've found very useful....treat those wrong thoughts as if they were a person. Seriously, tell them that they have no place in your life and no power over you becuase you are a Child of God....

I know if sounds phsycologically confusing and weird, this method is a weapon that the devil fears the most, mainly because he can only get to us Christians through our thoughts...

Hope that helped and I'll be praying for you....

[Tenshi no Ai]

I have my ups and downs all the time :/ The thing that's been bothering me alot lately, is so many people I know and love and just the thought that although they may not understand things, that from that alone sends them to such a bad place. Stuff like that had been pretty hard on me lately :/ Praying for you....

[freerock1]

Lifting you up, my sister. And remember, it's not how we feel that defines our relationship with God, but it's what Jesus did for us on the cross.

If it's of any encouragement, here's part of a verse that helps me sometimes when I'm tempted with doubt:
From 1 John 2:14 - " I write to you... because you are strong, and the word of God lives in you, and you have overcome the evil one."