Shinji Ikari wrote: Well, last week I was saved by the Grace of the lord Jesus thorugh the holy waters of baptism.
it was really awesome. I was filled witht the Holy Spirit, and vowed never to visint that dark place again.
Sin however, crept back into my life, and I started lusting again, and as well as lusting after real people, I enjoyed the horrible Hentai.
I came to the point oif declaring myself Bisexual, because I have feelings for guys, and it's hard to say "no I don't love you" when i obviously do. I know it's all forbidden by books like Leviticus, saying we should not lie down with a man like a woman. but I truly really do love some guys, and I can't turn those feelings off like that. It's not just a water main that can be shut of by a magical tap.
I really want to follow the Lord and do what he wants, does anyone have any suggestions.
And I keep getting a subconcious voice telling em that I've been baptised, still sinned, and voided that Baptism, is that true?
Hey Shinji!
Everyone has said most of it, but I'll just add on my 2 cents worth. I don't have time to go on a lengthy discourse, but please read Galatians. I have been going through something similar, and Galatians really helped me out. It was like the book/ letter was written to me. First of all, no that subconcious voice telling you that isn't right. Test the voice with the Bible. See if it measure us to the Word of God. Pray and ask God if that voice is from Him.
Here is a few passages that may help. While they address false prophets rather than subconcious voices, I still feel the same can be applied. Matthew 15 - 20:
15“Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17Likewise every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20Thus, by their fruit you will recognize the
Ask God to help you see whether or not something is from Him. Don't use your own judgement, because we are sinful and human. Only God can see with all clarity. The Bible also says that out heart is deceitful: (Jeremiah 9 - 10) -
9 The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
10 "I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve."
Therefore, I can only repeat what God's Word already says:
7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding]
7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil. (Proverbs 3:5-7)
As for sin creeping back up and sinful desires not being shut off easily with a twist of a magical tap, your absolutely right.
Once we accept Jesus into our lives as our Lord and Savior, we are saved. However that's just the beginning! Christanity is a process. God wants us to ber perfect.
Matthew 5:48: 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
And it is He Who does the work in us, to make us perfect, like Jesus, like our heavenly Father.
Philippians 1:6 -->
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Shinji, you know what's right. You know that bisexuality, lust, and hentai is sin. And I thank God you know, and accept that. Don't give up!
James 1: 2-8 -->
"2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a doubleminded man, unstable in all he does."
I'll pray for you. Read Galatians. I really think it will speak to you. I also would like to encourage you to read Romans 7:4 - 8:39. Now I really need to get back to my work... This post has turned out longer than I thought it would be.
God bless,
Jonathan