My testimony of character development of my family
PostPosted: Sat May 15, 2004 2:58 pm
hold on, my comps acting up
THis is one of the few times I'll consider something "mature and responsible reading". Just in case ill put it all in spoiler code. if you dont want to risk it then dont read, i beseech you
[spoiler]MY copusins Jeff and Dan didnt have much of a happy childhood. THeir parents Aunt marlaina (Dads sister) ans uncle dan were druggies and wahtnot. Uncle dan was put in prison where he supposedly became a Chistian. Later he devorced Marlaina and marries Dana or "evil aunt Dana" She hated my cuosins, Especially Jeff the elder brother. DAn was virtuelly ignored, even by our Grandparents. THe only time he put on a sincere smile was when he was with my family, cause he knew we truly loved him like a brother and son. DAna though called Jeff a creep ect... Most of it was a lie.
Oh but little did we know how "right" she was. October 2002 Jeff, 17 (BDay oct 31), was caught molesting my 10 year old brother is Jeff’s room. then we found out that he messed with my sister for about two years, and my little brother Josh wouldn’t say anything. About the whole town hated us it seemed. we even got a nasty phone call, once and we changed our number. Many who we thought friends now are enemies.
In court Jeff spewed lies about our Grandparents, Grandma beck to be more exact. Shed been nothing but kind loving and supportive. Oh how my stomach churned. Worst his little brother danny! the boy had to live with a pedophile! WE all know that Jeff had his hands on his brother. Uncle dan, when the investigator went to Danny, Dan told him to deny everything! how can a father do that? maybe giult? think how he was such a crappy father, maybe he thought he was doing jeff a favor...
If i see my uncle, if he greets me, i look away and keep walking. Sickening.
For the longest time i was angry, at God and myself. angry at god because he let it happen. Angry at myself, why couldn’t I see it? I knew there was something wrong for the longest time! I knew! i never saw, but I could feel it!
I hate him. UI wish I could kill him for...everything! But now we know where the family's loyalties lie. Separating the wheat from the tears? ne? Jeff got out of it. A year and a half in the county Jail in lakeport. I live about a half hour away from here. he's to be out this summer. he had over seven felonies. My sister thinks shes nothing but crap because she said nothing, but its his fault!
Now we are in Hidden Valley, away from middletown till we can move to shasta. I wanted nothing more than to stay in middle town with my friends and ALL my family. its because of Jeff we that we leave.
I gues its true that all things work for good for those that love the Lord, ne? Im more interested in the bible, I came here because i dont have any Christian friends, ect. Ive pretty much handle all this like an adult. Or very well for my age.
God never said it would be easy but we'd never have to go alone. But how I long for things to be back to normal
Now that hes the Pariah, everything in my Grandma's (he lived with Beck til he finished high school because his parents moved to Oregon) garden is thriving. before they only grew okay. In our yrad too! (before we moved to HV)
I always did like Danny better. He was never a sweet boy, but it wasnt an act. If he didnt like you he made no bones about it. Jeff well, it was a charade. Id like the truth over a charade any day.
I know how far sexual sin can go. Jeff’s tried to get me even. this might even tell some of you why I pretty much hate sexual cartoons and comic books, why they make me so angry, because i know first hand. im sick of heraring about all that maturity crap! its a very unnecessary risk, and perhaps i worry for the rest of you! sure you may be mature, but you jsut never know! you just dont. i probably would read love hina if this had never happened.
I dont know all the details because my parents wont tell everything, for our sake. I like it that way. I know enough.I know that is isnt rare... this sorta crap happens all the time
THis has been the hardest time in my life so far, and know my family is stronger than ever! I only pray that this isnt perparing me for the same when I ahve a family of my own... I KNOW God will always be there in our walk through fire. Ill never doubt that again! Never stop believing! if we werent God fearing Christians, we probably wouldnt have come out of this very well. I have more knowledge now, And I was even able to help a dear friend of mine who had a similar encounter...So I guess we came out on top of everything, ne?[/spoiler]