CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

Secret

I touch your hand I touch your face.
So lovely is this sensation.
I hear your voice but it sounds so hallow when it reaches my brain.
No emotion.
No feeling.
None of the hole of what I feel for you.
It's as if you exist but not here.
No one sees you.
No one feels you but I do.
Why dose no one see you but me?
And why is it that only in my deepest despair that you speak?
Only when I am in deepest depths of depression do we talk to each other.
Only in this pit of self-pity do we converse.
Is it that you are in my mind?
And I only see you with my minds eye?
Or are you even really there my secret lover?



one more step



One more step and I'll break.
One more step and I'll fall.
One more step and I'll die.
Yet I am compelled to take this step, this step of doom.
Why, o-why, why must I feel that I must take this step?
If I take this one stride I will fall.
Fall from all existence.
Fall from all knowledge and thought.
I will be no more.
But yet I am compelled to take this stride of doom.


Let me stay

Let me stay here in my mind where only my own demons lie.
Out there in the world they all attack me every ones monsters
committing caricature assassination to me.
So I say let me lie here and stay away.
Let me lie here in my own world of inner torment and suffering.
In my world of closet monsters of all are childhoods.
Because I know that here in my own little world all I have to blame is me.

*sigh* another poet after my own heart... I really like all of them!!! I can't wait to read more.

I have a web site that i put most of my work on but ill post more of it here as well!

Ooo... Yey!!

Can't wait.... *tries to sit and wait patiently*

pretty good, agentsmith!!

Heres some more of my stuff!

Dear God

Dear God I see her pain.
It hurts me so.
I see her pain and wish that I could take it all away.
The pain.
The hurt.
The sadness.
I wish that I could take them away.
I care a bout her more than I know.
This ach in my soul why o why won't it go away.

I stand here

I stand here before you but why do you not see me?
I suffer to be to be herd while you, you speak aloud and every heirs you and understands. No one understands no one knows what pain I suffer thru just to be seen much less heard. But no one understands my innermost thoughts not even me.

I struggle thru my daily routine just to lie awake at night thinking of what could be, but not for me. When will I understand, when will I be hole and complete?
O for that day I long.
I jus want to savor that moment in time of understanding.
But I still lie awake wishing for something more.


just me

I just want to know why you do this to me.
Why do you push me into the dirt every time I try to stand up.
I can't get off my face with you around.
Why dose it have this way
Why am I the villein when I am just trying to be, to be me no one else.
Just me and not your view of what I should be.
I can't be that person because it just ain't me.
And I must stick to my guns and fight for my self.
Because I cant be any one else.

I feel

I shoot up every time I feel.
This drug of my addiction is of the mind and sole.
The out poring of the sole is like the drug.
This words on the page the syringe.
The calm after the storm the temporary high.
I am addicted to the high after the storm
When I feel numb and normal again.

you have such interesting work.