I don't do well around lots of other people in social situations. I teach fine, but I can be a complete maniac when I teach - and I'm not trying to be anyone's friend over a long period. In social situations, I still have somewhat of a hangover from a childhood of acting on "my best behavior". That is to say, I never loosen up around other people in person and stay almost exclusively to myself. The internet is about the only place I'm closer to my real self. I'm trying to change that and I'm writing down a huge paper that's just sort of coming into being... like a thesis about myself. But mostly, for now, I stay as isolated as possible - I don't even want to say the number of RL friends I have
. But then again, a RL friendship as I define it is a thoroughly exhausting experience I imagine, I'm not sure anyone would really want to take a part in it.
But, so far, I'd recommend that. Write a thesis about what it is you value in other people, a literal list of things you think you'd value truly if you had a friend that could exhibit those qualities or abilities.