TopazRaven (post: 1439973) wrote:I feel like such a bad Christian. I wish I could see and hear the things you all do. When I talk to God I basically speak to him randomly like he's sitting next to me or something without imagining anything at all. Sometimes I think he must think me insane and become tired of my ramblings.
You think you feel like a bad Christian? You think God must be tired of your "insane ramblings"?
Let me tell you something...
Many of my prayers sessions once upon a time during my spiritual journey consisted of nothing but ranting and, several times, cussing God out directly.
The thing about God is... he is patient. He is understanding. He understands what you are going through and why you act the way you do. God is not in a box like so many different denominations and people try to put him in. There is just not one set of absolute rules of code and conduct that one must act before God in order to be accepted by him.
Every human being is different. Everyone has different ways of thinking, different backgrounds, different life experiences, and God takes all things into account and each individual relationship with him is going to be different.
Really, the whole human race is insane and messed up and God would rather you ramble and even sometimes rage at him because you are actually TALKING to Him and allowing Him a window into your life to help you through whatever you are going through and come out stronger.
Just because someone else has a specific way of praying or seems to "love God more" than you feel like you do doesn't mean jack. You are your own person, and you have your own specific relationship with God. Don't compare yourself with others.