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Because of relationship issues lately I've been trying to focus more on God for about the past month, I kinda saw that I was straying of a bit, and I needed to focus more on him. I've been reading my bible, reading christian books about problems I have (self esteem, jealousy,) and I've been trying to get better at taking time to pray deeply everyday.
Anyway so I've been trying to do all that, but whenever something hits me or something I feel speaks to me I claim it (thats what my dad calls it idk what others call it) but the next day somethign horrible always happens, I feel like I'm almost being punished for trying to get my life in order and get closer to God. Its been really making me feel discouraged. whenever I pray for Gods help with something, the next day I get pushed down about the same thing. My parents think its a spiritual attack but I don't know what it is :/

Also last night I found a article abut my dad that was pretty bad, he used to be a county commissioner, and was very open about being a christian, so a lot of lies were told about him, anyway in the article there were things that I'd be scared to tak about.I searched my dads name to see i it would be on the top of the searches and it was the very first one, my dad is in ministry, he also has a online ministry so this is really bad for that :/ I'd just like prayer that some how it'd be taken off >.> I don't know how that is possible but please pray it will be .>

Praying for both you and your dad. I know that it seems the same for me and my life- I can only be a certain amount of happy/content before the universe decides that I've got to get off my high horse >.>" And often I'm then kicked when I'm down. You're still going strong, so give it time! I'm sure things will get better. Is it possible to contact the site that published that article and have it recinded/taken down? Sometimes they'll do that.

Praying for both you and your dad. I know that it seems the same for me and my life- I can only be a certain amount of happy/content before the universe decides that I've got to get off my high horse >.>" And often I'm then kicked when I'm down. You're still going strong, so give it time! I'm sure things will get better. Is it possible to contact the site that published that article and have it recinded/taken down? Sometimes they'll do that.

yea :/ I get to a point were i feel like maybe things will get better when I read somethign or what ever and the next day i get pushed down v.v Things haven't been very good at all the past month for me, so its really frustrating.

Well I asked my mom about the article and she sad they have been complaining to the news paper who wrote the article, but sense he's a public figure they wont take it down, they basically said they can make lies about him and don't have to take it down because he's a public figure :/ I'm just hoping somethign will happen that will take it off..

new request: this fist week of school has been pretty horrible, I cried pretty much everyday at school (wow I feel like a little kid) I decided to leave my boyfriend things got a lot worse, and my friends aren't really treating me like a friend, just pray that this year wont be totally horrible like its been, and that I will get out of this depression and anxiety I am feeling.

I'm sorry to hear things have been rough. I'm sorry to hear you've left your boyfriend, but I'm sure you made the best decision for yourself. Praying that things get better with your friends and that the year will get a lot better!

Atria35 (post: 1502970) wrote:I'm sorry to hear things have been rough. I'm sorry to hear you've left your boyfriend, but I'm sure you made the best decision for yourself. Praying that things get better with your friends and that the year will get a lot better!

It was getting pretty bad.....
me too I kinda have a cycle I always have every year :/ kinda always had a hard time in school sense I was really little.

I'm sure many of us know what you mean, I was pretty badly bullied in younger grades (I had to play with kids older than me because majority of my grade hated me for a reason I'm still yet to know)

Will be praying for you!

Hope you made the correct decision, I hope you feel alright

Hope you made the correct decision, I hope you feel alright

me too v.v all my friends are saying how mean I am :/ he's kinda the "nice guy" at school. so I'm definitely gonna get some people hating me for this, but he's different at school then he is with me >.>
Just super depressed right now

I wish I could hug you through my phone screen but it wouldn't be big enough anyway .

I prayed for you.

thanks guys >.< having kinda a hard time, being with someone for over a year and then it ending, kinda isn't so much fun >.> I feel like I messed up even though I know i did the right thing >.<

Having a really hard time right now. School, other then the break up has been pretty horrible right now I have been havign anxiety and friend issues, and academic issues, and got kicked out of my video production group which kinda made me sad :/ , I know its a bit blown out of proportion with relationship stuff, but its really hard to deal with.

The guy I broke up with is now kinda acting revengeful, and its really hard on me >.< Also, my parents the other day said to me "you are a miserable person, your whole life you have been miserable" I was kinda surprised but they are right, I have always had a hard time with life. my goal right now in life is to "have one year nothing big horribly goes wrong" because pretty much every year I've had somethign really bad go wrong. I just really need prayer for strength. I've been reading the bible and praying and reading Christian books like crazy and really really wanting change in my life, but I get in these mods and just get disappointed. Please pray that things will get better, or at least I will strenghten with all of this, and also maybe the ongoing cycle in my life with break.

Also I have a question, My dad keeps saying being depressed or upset, and showing it is selfish, and if I'm a christian I should be happy, this just really upsetting me, i know I am a christian, but I just don't know what to think abut what he said

What he said isn't true. Depression isn't something you can turn off or make not happen, and if all Christians were happy then it would be kind of sick (seriously. Starving Christians in Africa have every right to not be happy). And hiding it can be worse, since then you can't get help for it.

Atria35 (post: 1503993) wrote:What he said isn't true. Depression isn't something you can turn off or make not happen, and if all Christians were happy then it would be kind of sick (seriously. Starving Christians in Africa have every right to not be happy). And hiding it can be worse, since then you can't get help for it.

I kinda told him the same thing....He just says its loving to make a effort to be fine and happy.....I was just wondering if I was just being pathetic and if he was right lol Thank you >.<

I don't think you're being pathetic and un-loving at all. You have a big heart, and that seems to be why you get hurt so much.

Of course, being depressed literally all the time isn't healthy, so depending on how often you feel depressed, there are studies that show the expression on your face can affect your mood slightly (so if you're only feeling a little down, a smile might help). But for the most part, it's just how you feel, and that's how things are.

Atria35 (post: 1504041) wrote:I don't think you're being pathetic and un-loving at all. You have a big heart, and that seems to be why you get hurt so much.

Of course, being depressed literally all the time isn't healthy, so depending on how often you feel depressed, there are studies that show the expression on your face can affect your mood slightly (so if you're only feeling a little down, a smile might help). But for the most part, it's just how you feel, and that's how things are.

When things are fine and nothing bad has happened, I'm pretty happy. Just the past 7 over so more years one thing happen after another. I know thats just part of life but something about me kinda takes a while to deal with something but once I'm done I'm done.

Hey, there's no set time period for when you get past feeling down or anything of that nature. What matters most is getting through it, even asking for help and support if you feel you're no longer able to keep it up on your own. There's no shame in admitting you might need help and asking for it .

Hey, there's no set time period for when you get past feeling down or anything of that nature. What matters most is getting through it, even asking for help and support if you feel you're no longer able to keep it up on your own. There's no shame in admitting you might need help and asking for it .

I do need help lol thats why I put up a pray thread. but yea you are right about how everything takes to to get over, I just need to remember I wont feel this way forever.

*huggles* Maka, I read this whole thread, and what the others have said, is basically how I feel. You are beautiful, inside and out. What your parents said about you being "miserable" even if it is true, was cruel. As Parents, instead of making you feel WORSE, they are supoosed to be making you feel better. Trying to help you become better! My mom tried, but she also snapped at me a lot. It didn't help me, I can tell you that right now. Kindness is something people think is easy, if you talk sweet, then you are being kind; WRONG. You have to feel the kindness inside and not be inwardly thinking; "ugh, I wish I didn't have to do this."

I think you are going to be fine. Once you can go out and do what you want to do, God has a calling for you. ^_^ I know you can do/be anything you want. All it takes, is faith. Though, Faith can be hard to come by, I've found that when I sit in faith for a long time, it becomes easier to think; "God's got this."

Change the way you think, whenever you think; "This sucks," instead think; "God, I need you, please be with me." I had to start doing that, otherwise I felt sick that I never talked to God, even though He is always listening.

^_^ You can make it!

Thanks Nami ^.^

I can tell my parents are worried about me and care, but they have been really been open to depression or any negitive emotion.

Change the way you think, whenever you think; "This sucks," instead think; "God, I need you, please be with me." I had to start doing that, otherwise I felt sick that I never talked to God, even though He is always listening.

I have been trying to change the way I think, It does help alot. In the past when I felt horrible I'd jsut focus on that feeling, but I've been working on turning it to God and ask him for help.

Hey! i just wanted to say a few words to hopefully encourage you...i know how it is with dealing with relationships that go bad one way or the other and like the world just gangs up on you for some reason...but you keep being strong and have faith that gods got his hand in your life working behind the scenes preparing something amazing just for you...im sure jesus and god smile upon you from above. i hope you start to feel better about your situations! Always remember that god loves you dearly


,Angelo

LOLangelo (post: 1505049) wrote:Hey! i just wanted to say a few words to hopefully encourage you...i know how it is with dealing with relationships that go bad one way or the other and like the world just gangs up on you for some reason...but you keep being strong and have faith that gods got his hand in your life working behind the scenes preparing something amazing just for you...im sure jesus and god smile upon you from above. i hope you start to feel better about your situations! Always remember that god loves you dearly


,Angelo

Thanks I was feeling better earlier today, but my ex came over for a bible study and he kept putting me down....and then I started crying and then he started crying :/ lol but hopefully things will be getting better, I'm trying to turn to God through all of this.

Daaang. I'm so sorry to hear that. I think that if he's being cruel, then avoidance is the best option. Was the study at your church? Talk to the pastor or whoever's in charge- they should speak with him and make it known that that behavior is unacceptable. If it was just you and him, don't invite him there again. He's just going to be mean and petty, from the sounds of it.

Atria35 (post: 1505075) wrote:Daaang. I'm so sorry to hear that. I think that if he's being cruel, then avoidance is the best option. Was the study at your church? Talk to the pastor or whoever's in charge- they should speak with him and make it known that that behavior is unacceptable. If it was just you and him, don't invite him there again. He's just going to be mean and petty, from the sounds of it.

No its at my house, my parents kinda have a youth ministry....I see him in that, my photography class everyday and church :/ so its a bit hard to avoid him lol. I thought sense we have to be around eachother we could just be friends but he seems like he doesn't want to. its just kinda hard, I know this sounds stupid but I thought he'd react differently even though this is the expected way to act.

No, I can get that. However, if he's mistreating you at their youth ministry, your parents should be behind you and telling him that's unacceptable behavior. That's what parents are supposed to do. And you also have a right to mention to your pastor what's been going on. Someone needs to set him straight, and you need a safe place to escape to.

Wow, that is a heck of a lot to deal with! 0.o I'll be keeping you in my prayers Maka. I also agree with Atria about pretty much everything. You should in least feel comfortable in your own parent's ministry group for goodness sake. He needs to get over himself.

Atria35 (post: 1505114) wrote:No, I can get that. However, if he's mistreating you at their youth ministry, your parents should be behind you and telling him that's unacceptable behavior. That's what parents are supposed to do. And you also have a right to mention to your pastor what's been going on. Someone needs to set him straight, and you need a safe place to escape to.

My parents aren't too protective.....but yea >< I understand what you are saying.

My dad is kinda pushing me to invite him to things and welcome him, but my ex seems to really not like it so its kinda awkward.

Thanks for the prayer everyone >.< I've been doing a bit better, other then I kidna looked back last night and I wonder if he really did love me....about three months into the relationship I did something that made him forum a huge grudge against me that lasted for about 9 months....... and it kinda destroyed us, I just wonder if there ever was a time he did love me :/ but I shouldn't think like that I know >.<

Hey, Maka. It's completely normal after a breakup (speaking from experience some years before hubby and I got married) to look back and ask "Where did things start to go south?". Still, it's not always a healthy outlet for what you're feeling, especially when it's been recent. If you don't catch it, soon you'll be beating yourself up with questions like "Why didn't I handle this a different way?" or "How was it that I failed to notice this?".

Right now is not the time to be looking back, hon. Praying for you .

K. Ayato (post: 1505250) wrote:Hey, Maka. It's completely normal after a breakup (speaking from experience some years before hubby and I got married) to look back and ask "Where did things start to go south?". Still, it's not always a healthy outlet for what you're feeling, especially when it's been recent. If you don't catch it, soon you'll be beating yourself up with questions like "Why didn't I handle this a different way?" or "How was it that I failed to notice this?".

Right now is not the time to be looking back, hon. Praying for you .

yea v.v I kinda have been catching myself doing that alot...I'm trying not to though, I'm trying to just ask God to take those thoughts away. Its a little hard :/ but I'm working on it.

Still praying for you. I'm sorry to hear that you parents are.... ugh. I'm sorry, I'm just a little disgusted at the moment. They probably had break-ups when they were younger, so it confuses and angers me a little that they aren't being a little more symathetic.

At least it's still nice out- take your camera, your backpack, and get away for a while. I'm still urging you to talk to your pastor, and see if he can't talk to your parents about this boy coming over.