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My grandma first.

My grandma has been seeing...visions? of my great-grandmother, her mom. She's firmly convinced that my great-grandma (who is dead) is calling to her, to leave this world. At first I dismissed this as an over reactive imagination, but lately, I'm starting to feel scared that she really is being called. Please pray for her.

Lately, I've started thinking about myself, and my friends. Why do people like me? I'm no good. That train of thought has led me down, deeper and deeper. Now, I'm like, really depressed. Because I see no reason for people to like me, yet they do. And I feel like I don't deserve it. I feel like the irresponsible, irascible young stubborn teenager that I am, and I don't see any reason why anybody should like me. Why should anybody care about me? I'm a selfish idiot. Why should I even be making this thread? Why should I make people worry about me? Why would people worry about me? Why should I trouble people with helping me?

*end of long line of weird questions that really don't have to be answered* o.0

So yeah, if you could please pray for my grandma and me, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks.

I'll be praying for both of you

I'll pray for both you and your grandma, Sam.

samurai10 (post: 1465588) wrote:Lately, I've started thinking about myself, and my friends. Why do people like me? I'm no good. That train of thought has led me down, deeper and deeper. Now, I'm like, really depressed. Because I see no reason for people to like me, yet they do. And I feel like I don't deserve it. I feel like the irresponsible, irascible young stubborn teenager that I am, and I don't see any reason why anybody should like me. Why should anybody care about me? I'm a selfish idiot. Why should I even be making this thread? Why should I make people worry about me? Why would people worry about me? Why should I trouble people with helping me?

I've had these exact same thoughts, if that's of any comfort to you. I can't offer anything beyond prayer (and an ear to listen, if you wish), but please don't feel bad about asking for prayer for yourself. Having an idea of what you're going through, I especially want to pray for you.

Praying for your grandma and you.

Praying for you two.


Frankly, I don't see why people need a reason to like each other. So you don't deserve it??? What qualifies as deserving? What are the criterion? Think about Christ - He loves us despite all that we've done to Him in rejecting Him through sin and then asking that His death pay for it. Wow... God is merciful and kind.

Think about Jesus, Sam!

Meh. My grandma's situation is so strange, I'll wait for a bit before I update.

I'd like to add in a prayer request for my mom. She's really stressed about my grandma, and she barely has any time to do what her career is, which is accounting. Clients are going to start yelling at her soon since she hasn't done their work yet, and so yeah....Please pray for her.

That's exactly why I'm kind of depressed. Why did Jesus die for me if he knew that I'd just sin even more? Y'know?

Yeah....I'm really weird. >_>;;;

I'll be praying for your mom.

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Um.. why did Jesus die for us if He knew we were going to sin in the first place? - Because He loves us; He want's us to eventually come to love Him, even with our ever-changing free wills. Crazy love? Yeah, but He's wonderful that way. This is a good time to practice thankfulness.
I'm not a theologian, so I'm giving you answers you probly already know.

And you're not weird... unless you want to be. I guess that's okay. XD

I definately pray for you, your grandmother, and your mother.

Jesus died for us knowing that we'd still sin because he loves us so unconditionally, a love we might never be able to understand but can definately appreciate and learn to love in return.

One day by one.

Sunday-My mom went over to my grandma's house, 'cause she was complaining that she had serious aches and could barely move. My mom convinced her to come to my house and stay. However...
Monday- She improved. She didn't have any of the leg cramps that she had had for the past few months, and felt a lot better. She then told my mom that she didn't want to come to my house anymore.
Tuesday- She started complaining of lightheadedness, and overall, she didn't feel good again. My mom went over there and found out that she wasn't eating...again. She made her eat, and drink a calcium pill. After that, my grandma felt better, so we went home.
Wednesday- She could barely move. The pain was very great, and she was super dizzy. We took her to the hospital. Good thing too. Her potassium was at 6.2 and if we had not taken her to the hospital, she could have died. They finally discharged her late at night with potassium lowering medicine.
Thursday- She went to the doctor with my uncle. Nothing special.
Today- My mom found out just this morning that my grandma has low hemoglobin, which is a sign of cancer.

Please continue praying for both my mom, and my grandma.

As for me, my depression isn't as bad, but it's still there.

Thanks for praying everybody!

*hugs* You can call me any time Samu! You just have to ring me~ I will talk to you. I'm sorry about your grandmother, I pray she gets better and that your situation becomes better. I know how tough it is when you feel low on yourself and wonder why anyone should care, but the truth is, we all have that feeling at some point. Some more than others. But it's life and that's why you have friends and God, so we can be there for you and make you feel better. ^_^

samurai10 (post: 1466744) wrote:That's exactly why I'm kind of depressed. Why did Jesus die for me if he knew that I'd just sin even more? Y'know?

Because, Jesus loved us. I don't exactly know why, but I'd like to think that He saw potential for good, and He wanted to show us the Way. I'm sure his heart ached and His heart-aches now for you when you feel alone and sad. God wants you to love Him. So turn your all to Him. Put your heart into His hands, and make sure you tell Him all your worries. He loves you so much, that you can't even comprehend it. *hugs*

Praying for all of the above xxx

Things came tumbling down today when I managed to get my sister, who's attitude is as tame as a lamb's, furiously mad. At first, I felt nothing but anger, but then I started thinking about how I didn't deserve anything that I had in life, I didn't deserve what I had gotten angry about, how what I deserved was a hard life, since I'm an idiot, and how I thought that nobody would care if my sister came on here one day and said I was dead.

I truly am an idiot. I have so many good friends here, why wouldn't they care? I asked myself. Because you're a darned 13-year-old of an idiot who can't keep your temper, and stinks at comforting people, I replied.

I told my sister, "Heh, I guess that apologizing to you wouldn't work huh? I got you too darned mad. Heck, I don't even deserve forgiveness. You're probably glad that you don't have to do what I wanted to do with me, huh? Hehe. Well, oh well, whatever, you probably don't care." I tried going out of the room, but she stopped me.

"Rose, I love you. And nothing's ever going to change that, ok? You do deserve it. You're a smart little girl with a loving heart. But what you did was wrong, and I just wanted you to know that." We made up.

Things came to a bad point today, but I was able to move past it. Thank you for praying. I'm really just an idiot. I'll work to deserve it, that's the resolution that I thought of. And Nami, I'll be sure to take that offer up one of these days. ^_^ Please continue praying for me though, I haven't completely moved past this. Thanks again everybody! ^_^
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Now about my grandma....

We've finally convinced her to move in with us. That's a start. She's getting better, but I think we'll have to keep her here for a few more weeks before we can let her go back home. Thanks for the prayers, things are looking up.

I will definately continue praying And you are bu no means an idiot; you are a God-fearing human being that I think has more wisdom than the average thirteen-year-old.