Praise!!!
PostPosted: Sun Mar 06, 2011 12:13 am
So... for those of you who haven't known me for long, I was engaged up until october of 2009. But my ex, who is a high-functioning autistic, dumped me for another guy. She then proceeded to help her friends give me hate mail and phone calls, screaming at me. My reputation was ruined at the church I used to go to, even though I didn't do anything to deserve it, and the last time I tried visiting there, I was almost kicked out.
It was the single most devastating thing that has ever happened to me, and everything around me was already going wrong already... I don't think I have ever had a more miserable time in my life than the past year and a half.
But that said, I think God started healing me!
I noticed tonight that I hadn't been thinking about her, and when I saw a picture of her, it didn't hurt like it used to. She's gone after the world, hasn't been following God at all despite her profession (she started sleeping with her boyfriend as well, from all accounts), etc., but it doesn't tear at me like it used to. I don't feel that pounding in my heart like I used to.
In this long time, God made me into a better man, more mature and trusting in Christ; I learned to bring my pain to Him, and He has been taking it away slowly.
Just wanted to post this in praise of the Lord, and to assure those in similar siutations that yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! It's going to be okay!
-Blake
p.s. I do recognize my own humanity, though. Please pray that this healing continues, and that I don't relapse back into that kind of heartache. Thanks
It was the single most devastating thing that has ever happened to me, and everything around me was already going wrong already... I don't think I have ever had a more miserable time in my life than the past year and a half.
But that said, I think God started healing me!
I noticed tonight that I hadn't been thinking about her, and when I saw a picture of her, it didn't hurt like it used to. She's gone after the world, hasn't been following God at all despite her profession (she started sleeping with her boyfriend as well, from all accounts), etc., but it doesn't tear at me like it used to. I don't feel that pounding in my heart like I used to.
In this long time, God made me into a better man, more mature and trusting in Christ; I learned to bring my pain to Him, and He has been taking it away slowly.
Just wanted to post this in praise of the Lord, and to assure those in similar siutations that yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! It's going to be okay!
-Blake
p.s. I do recognize my own humanity, though. Please pray that this healing continues, and that I don't relapse back into that kind of heartache. Thanks
I'll pray. ^^