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Hi peoples >.< I know I haven't' been on here for a very long time...but I really need prayer :/ I feel kinda guilty to ask though sense I haven't been on...but oh well V.V
A ton of stuff is going on right now >.< I kinda don't know where to start so I will start with the latest. My dad the other day had a small stroke, and we were told that if he falls or hits his head he could easily die cause he has a clogged artery. This really scares me. I'm really close to my dad and I really don't do well with death. I still cry over my cat that died a few months ago and my dog that died 6 months ago. So this really really scares me.

I have a friend that is kinda like a boyfriend, he's none christian, and I know its stupid to be this close to a none christian and I wish I was wiser in the first place and protected myself but I guess I didn't I'm not allowed to date him and my parents I don't think know how close I am to him...and I feel really really guilty sense my family is so close. :/ I really love him. and I cry almost everyday thinking were he will go when he dies....I really need prayer that he will become a christian, I know its his choice but it hurts seeing him go through life with out God. This friend is also going through a lot and its putting more stress on me but I wanna be there for him.

I'm also having friend problems, losts two of them in a week like really lost them...not just one day your a friend and then not and then its back to normal the next day. Also theres rumors at school about me so people are really starting to hate me...which I can deal with but what hurts is when your friends start to believe them and turn against you.

a few days ago I also found out my brother smokes, I know its not that big of a deal but it hurts seeing him hurt himself so please pray he will stop.

Last but not least my faith is getting shaky, I've always been pretty strong with faith, believing that God has a plan and his will, will be done and its for the best. It just seems everything I pray for never happens, When I pray for a sign that God is there I get none. Even if I search for one. I'm not saying I don't believe in God but I am feeling really weak right now and I'd like prayer that my faith grows stronger.

Sorry for this being so long I'd post everything thats going on...but it'd be alot lol

I'm praying for you, for your family, and for your friends.

I can't give you an instant fix for your faith, and I know from personal experience that a lot of times what people say in situations like this don't really help, but if you believe anything I say, believe me when I say: those times when your faith is weak and God doesn't seem to be listening are awful, but if you get through them with your faith in tact, you will look back and see Him working even through the prayers you thought He was ignoring. So hang in there, and have faith that even though God doesn't seem to be there for you right now, He is still at work in your life.

One of my favorite passages is this:

I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. (Lamentations 3:19-26)

I don't know if you know the background to this or not, but this was written by Jeremiah, a prophet who worked his entire life for God, and was only ridiculed by the people around him. He was thrown into jail, threatened with death, and lived to see his entire nation conquered and invaded by enemies. He is known as "the weeping prophet," because his life story is so tragic. But in the middle of all these awful things that kept happening to him, sometimes because he followed God, he penned this beautiful passage.

I hope that helps, even if just a little. I just want to encourage you right now. Not feeling close to God happens to a lot of us (I don't want to say the best of us, because I wouldn't know about that, but even CS Lewis had his moments where God seemed nowhere to be found), and at those times, sometimes all I can manage to pray is, "I trust You." But there is value even in a prayer that simple.

Thank you for the encouragement >.< and the passage.
I'm really trying to trust God. I just with there was a sign or some sort that he is there.
but when I think about it I remember a few years back I kinda had this same problem I'm hoping it will pass and I will be stronger. I just really need faith. Thank you again >.<

Makachop^^128 (post: 1451192) wrote:Thank you for the encouragement >.< and the passage.
I'm really trying to trust God. I just with there was a sign or some sort that he is there.
but when I think about it I remember a few years back I kinda had this same problem I'm hoping it will pass and I will be stronger. I just really need faith. Thank you again >.<

*hug* Just remember that what you're going through is not unusual, and we're here for you.

Am praying for you that God will help you get through this all....and trust me when u do u will be so much more stronger

I'll be praying for you my friend! I can really understand where you are coming from. When I look around at my family members and friends who havn't exactly accepted Jesus' offering I often have to fight the urge to sob thinking about where they might be going once they die. I keep praying God touchs their lives at some point before that day and brings them to Him. As for faith, mine is in a rather complicated place right now to. Sometimes it feels so weak and I constantly worry about if I myself might be going to hell, other times I feel so strongly about Jesus I feel tears in my eyes of love and greatfulness. I've noticed this usually happens when I'm listening to good Chirstian music and movies. So anyway, just know that you are not alone. We just need to remember sometimes we are meant to suffer in this lifetime as life is far from easy, but God will always pick us back up and put all the pieces back together if we let Him in.

TopazRaven (post: 1451206) wrote:I'll be praying for you my friend! I can really understand where you are coming from. When I look around at my family members and friends who havn't exactly accepted Jesus' offering I often have to fight the urge to sob thinking about where they might be going once they die. I keep praying God touchs their lives at some point before that day and brings them to Him. As for faith, mine is in a rather complicated place right now to. Sometimes it feels so weak and I constantly worry about if I myself might be going to hell, other times I feel so strongly about Jesus I feel tears in my eyes of love and greatfulness. I've noticed this usually happens when I'm listening to good Chirstian music and movies. So anyway, just know that you are not alone. We just need to remember sometimes we are meant to suffer in this lifetime as life is far from easy, but God will always pick us back up and put all the pieces back together if we let Him in.

yea >.< I know this is kinda overboard but I'm crying multiple times a day for him...It hurts, he has a ton of things going on in his life and it hurts to see him try to get through them with put God.

Aw, that is a shame. Have you ever tried talking to him about God? I know it's kind of hard talking to some of my family and friends about Him because they don't really seem to want to hear it.

TopazRaven (post: 1451251) wrote:Aw, that is a shame. Have you ever tried talking to him about God? I know it's kind of hard talking to some of my family and friends about Him because they don't really seem to want to hear it.

I'm pretty open about my beliefs, and one thing I really like about this guy is we can pretty much have a deep conversation about anything. So we talk alot about Christianity, I don't know if he just does it cause he likes me or if its because he's interested. His parents came from a religious family, so his parents really don't like Christianity and are really pushing him not to get into it, while my parents, seeing how close we are, are pushing him to become a christian. He says he isn't ready to make the decision but I wish that people wouldn't push him V.V as much as I want him to become a christian I feel like pushing would just make him not want to. He's a kinda guy that wants facts and understand something before getting into it, so I'm trying to be open and talk about what it means to be a christian whenever I can.

Praying for you.

For what it's worth, my dad had a stroke before I was born. Your dad is very lucky that they managed to help him- my dad had the symptoms for a full day, but no one realized what was wrong until he fell over the next day. He lived, though- minus some of his speech and some paralysis on one side of his body. But it could have been much worse.

Atria35 (post: 1451269) wrote:Praying for you.

For what it's worth, my dad had a stroke before I was born. Your dad is very lucky that they managed to help him- my dad had the symptoms for a full day, but no one realized what was wrong until he fell over the next day. He lived, though- minus some of his speech and some paralysis on one side of his body. But it could have been much worse.

Thank you >.< that gives me some hope I'm happy your dad is alive ^.^

Update: My dad seems to be doing better, they still might have to do a surgery but they say they don't know yet.


As for my friend, I am praying for Gods will on that. I don't know what else I can do.

Gad to hear your dad is doing better. Even if he does need that surgery, the better he is, the better his chances are!

As for your friend, that's the only thing you can do- turn to God. You can't make someone convert, only He can. So have patience It's amazing how people's hearts can change just from being around a kind and caring Christian that lives their beliefs.

I'm glad your dad is doing better.

It sounds like your friend is pretty open. I think being patient, praying, and living to glorify God as much as possible are the best things you can do right now.

Yea Just please pray now for Gods will and that God will use me to reach out to him.

I'm praying ((( ))) That sounds very overwhelming.

I've had TIA (Transient ischmetic attack). I'm praying that God will give him healing. They also told me if I get hit too hard in the head, I can go blind (due to another illness) and/or have a stroke. It is scary but God is with me and he is definiitely with you dad. It isn't easy but praying for you that you may find peace.

praying for the situation with your boyfriend. It is difficult because you care about the person. In my own experience, I found that when you are with someone of the same faith (that follows and believes etc) it can help strengthen your own faith too. Not judging you or anything becuase I've been there. Praying God softens the heart of your boyfriend and gives you wisdom for whatever you are supposed to do in that situation.

Praying that your faith is strengthened. People have told me that everyone goes through times where they question or deal with a shaken faith. Sometimes this can make it that much stronger. Praying that God gives you comfort, peace and strength in this area as well.

*hugs to you*

Yesterday my dad got tested again, apparently either the other test was bad or God healed him because now they are saying his artery is perfectly clear and in better health then most people his age. Thank you to everyone for praying

praying for the situation with your boyfriend. It is difficult because you care about the person. In my own experience, I found that when you are with someone of the same faith (that follows and believes etc) it can help strengthen your own faith too. Not judging you or anything becuase I've been there. Praying God softens the heart of your boyfriend and gives you wisdom for whatever you are supposed to do in that situation.

Yea, our relationship is like better then I ever thought relationships would be, no fights, we are clear with each other, everything. Other then I'm not growing spiritually through it. I'm praying for Gods will on this. Even if its something I don't want >.<

I'm so glad to hear about your dad! That's terrific news!

And I'm also glad to hear about your relationship- praying for His will on it, too.