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It's me again. I hope it doesn't seem like I complain a lot. I do have a lot of good and awesome things happening in my life --I just also have some struggles here and there.

I have some sort of neurological condition (not yet diagnosed.) Part of this condition is recurring migraines. I've had them off and on since I was a teenager. But they've gotten worse since all that hospital stuff in December.

On Tuesday this past week, I had a really bad flare-up of my migraine symptoms and sensitivity to light. It has continued and hasn't let up yet. Now it is going on a week. Because I've felt so terrible all weekend, I haven't gotten any schoolwork done and now I'm afraid to tell my professors --physical ailments aren't taken as excuses in grad school --I have to get my stuff done, period.

Also, because I haven't been feeling well, I haven't been reading my Bible. I've been making myself more vulnerable to temptation and have fallen into old habits and a long-time sin that I've struggled with off and on for years. And it's my fault because I didn't take the way out that God provided, but lingered too long. I know God's grace is sufficient for me, I just wish I could finally beat this thing once and for all. I'm tired of it being a part of my life --I hate it.

I know there is a reason God gave me this body. After all, in Mark 9 it states that the man born blind was born blind so that God's glory could be shown through him. So there is definitely a reason for me being born this way.

It's just that is still sucks to have a body that is broken. I see the things my friends are able to do physically that I can't (like run) and I long to be able to do those things. I hate that I can't get as much done in a day as I'd like --my energy gives out long before my list is complete.

But the worse thing is these headaches. I can deal with the physical limitations and find ways to do what I need to (and I have.) But these headaches and migraines make it so difficult to focus and think coherently. I am hoping and praying that medicine will be found that will work or that a cure can be found.

Please pray that my referral to the specialist in Houston goes through (been waiting on it for weeks with no word.) Please pray also that God will help me to maintain a hopeful and thankful spirit within me --and remember that He has a plan and that He is bigger than all of this --and His grace IS sufficient even in all of my weaknesses and/or failures.

Thank you.

Praying for you as usual! Is there no way the professors would have a little bit of mercy on you, since you have a condition that can't be helped? I should hope they'd be more understanding of a student that was plagued by a sudden onset of migraines than they would be of a student who got a headache from staying up all night or something. XD Anyways, I hope you feel better and I'll be praying for all of the above!

Definately Praying for you, Sheena.
I also wanted to suggest maybe getting an audio Bible? Or put on some Christian music to help you. If you can't read it I mean because of the headaches...

*hugs* It's good that you're trying to have a positive attitude about this... keep the toxic thoughts out and the good thoughts in! Love ya!

Praying. I'm saddened to hear that your professors are really hard on you- isn't there a way to bring attention to your issues to the department heads, or higher? Your condition is completely out of your control. There's gotta be someone who's willing to listen.

Sheenar:

As always my friend, you are an inspiration to me A few things I would like to encourage you is that you are not complaining or even in self pity. I am so glad you trust us well enough to express the struggles you are going through.

I hope they can get you a treatment for your cluster migraines soon (I'm guessing that is what they are kinda?). I have them a lot and they have come a long way in treating them.

I can also relate to being frustrated with the physical limitations. While yes, God knows what is going on and obv. knows what he is doing, it is still hard and I think its great you are able to say that you are having a hard time, yet you recognize that God is sovereign. To me that is simply awesome!

It really stinks your professors aren't more lenient. You may be able to talk to the Dean or speak to your professors individually to help you work out some solutions

I'm praying for everything! If you ever need to just vent out or what not, I'm only a PM away ((((( ))))))

Praying for ya.

I'll pray for you too. Peace and love.

praying for ya

I'll be praying as well.

Praying.

I'll be praying as well Hang in there, Sheenar