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So, allow me to preface by saying that my fiance ditched me for another guy last October, about two months after I got out of boot camp.

So, six months later, I still struggle with all the heartbreak, the anger, and a recurring sorrow. To make matters worse, my only way to contact my relatives in the West Coast (I'm stationed in Conneticut for my A school) is via Facebook, which means that I get a lot of her influence shoved in my face.

The first effect this has had on me, past the emotional tide, is that my old pornography addiction, though once extinct, is once more attacking me frequently, and even though I buy accountability software and filters, it's not always going to help. Please pray that God grants me strength or relief!

The second is that satan has been on the prowl... if he can't take my purity (I'm a virgin, and I'm fighting to keep abstinence a huge priority), then he attacks my faith in God. I have made it through this long, and yet the devil doesn't stop. Please pray that God protects me.

And just recently, I met a woman named Courtney, who lives in my hometown of Oceanside, CA. I hold no feelings for her, and I'm not especially attracted to her, but every time I talk to her, I can feel the Holy Spirit moving, and I would like prayer for discernment on how He wants me to move.

Thanks,
Blake

[font="Comic Sans MS"][color="Yellow"]Aww, I'm soo sorry for all the things that you have been going through!! :[

I will keep you in my prayers!
Also, just know that no matter what that God will be with you! ;][/color][/font]

Will be praying! Keep strong, though its hard God will get you throw it.

Praying for you. Hold onto Him, bro. He's right there with you.

Praying! Stay strong, man of God!

Dear Father,

We agree in prayer for our brother Blake. Please heal his heart from his past romantic relationship and steady his soul amidst the storm from within and from without.

Please bless Blake with strength and relief from his troubles & temptations. Let him find refuge in your Word and continue to seek you even when he doesn't feel likes it. Fill his heart with the joy of that peace which surpasses understanding. And guard and protect his heart, body, soul & spirit.

Also please give Blake wisdom and discernment regarding how you wish for him to minister to &/or interact with Courtney.

In Jesus's name we pray,
Amen

We have a thread for the second problem (if you wish to discuss that more) here http://www.christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=52274 ^^ I'll pray that all goes well for you ^^

I'll be praying dude. Stay strong ^^

Blake,

I don't know you but i can relate to the heartbreak from the fiancee. My own broke up with me 2 months before the wedding. I know that it hurts more than some can understand.

I pray that God will give you strength beyond anything for the porn addiction and that he will give you discerment about the girl. I pray that your heart will be strengthen and that Yahweh will talk to you more and more so the devil doesn't have a stronghold. Amen

Instances such as these leave us feeling absolutely lost and confused. The heartbreak is simply unimaginable. To have our very real love rejected by someone is just too much.

I pray for peace within your soul.

Sorry to hear everything that happened, just keep fighting and live for the Lord and He'll get you through this!

Thank you all for your prayers. After a bit of consideration, I have increased the controls on my filter, and I have been doing my best to serve God instead of letting satan try to get me to drift.

On the issue with my ex, Perris, it's a daily struggle, but I've been going through it for six months, so God continues to help me and give me strength - I'm a lot better now than I was a few months ago, I tell ya.


I still don't know what to gather about Courtney. I get this excited feeling whenever I talk to her, and I feel the Spirit move still, but I have no idea what to gather. Patience is gonna end up being my mode of operations, then.

Again, thank you!