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Well here goes everything... Back in june i was dating the girl of my dreams, she had moved into the apartment where i as living because I needed some roomates. And after about a month (as she moved in in may) of watching her go out with other guys, I finally got my chance to date her exclusivily. We were going to church together, at one point she even said that I had made her happier than she had ever been. There were softer moments, and towards the end of the lease we could not afford the apartment, that we were living in, so we had to move out... We moved into a friends house in the end of november, into his garage, after a month of living there, he asked that I move out three days before Christmas. I was also fired from my job as he was my boss (cant blame anyone tho, I was late frequently) I moved out to a friends house in loxahatchee, and with everything that went on stayed out there until the end of january, this is when she asked for some space. I said ok thinking that everything had been going so well, aside from the part that we were now in different living areas being she was still in gardens. We still stayed in contact with each other like nothing had happened and I kinda thought everything was ok, then I started helping out at her work again, and the next thing I know she is asking for more space. She said at one point that if we got back together we would probably end up being married, but as it is since january we have not gone out once. I feel depressed, down, frustrated, upset, andgry, unmotivated and so much more at times, at other times the only thing keeping me going is that I need to get out of my parents house, where i moved after loxahatchee. She is now out dating other people and even now says it is something she feels she has to do and that we are through, for now... She doesnt know if God has plans to bring her back into my life, and this worries me greatly... She even admits that what we had was good, and yet when everything was good, she said that she needs to date to make sure... She wanted to make sure that I was the person that she wanted to marry, but I feel lost. She feels bad that I am this way, and honestly i feel i have become something i dispise, bitter, resentful, jealous, and envious. She is someone I think the world of, and would gladly do anything for, short of kill, several commandements or selling my soul... Fear runs my life right now, and the only way around that is to kill off any emotions or feelings of love and feeling truly alone, but that also kills any motivation... I wish her the best, I pray that I could be the best for her, but regardless of what happens, I wish her great happiness and joy. Because she is such an awesome person when it comes down to it, she has endured so much and her faith in God is something amazing. She has been the only person to be able to bring my faith back to me, no one else could have done that, so now when i think of God I think of her impact in my life of her help and love... The only reason why i am even posting this is because I dont know what else to do, I dont know how to get myself out of this, and I need help, in the form of prayers.

Thanks,
God Bless

There used to be a time when fear ruled my life (from time to time it comes back to haunt me), but I now know that's not how it has to be. Go to God with your problems...lay them and ur future at his feet....

Remember that He has given you a choice between giving into fear or giving your everything to God....I know it's tough but He always has a better plan for us then any of us could imagine.....Will u take part in his plan for ur life?

U have my prayers.....

Mmmmm yeah. About dating. Usually when someone says "I'd like to have a little more space", that usually means someone's discontent about something.

Now I don't know whether or not things are her fault or yours. Regardless, it's times like these when you have to sit down with the other person and make sure everyone is on the same playing field. Whether you are able to do that at the current moment is beyond my knowledge.

And as a last note, you'll be in my prayers.

I shall pray. I also noticed you said that: [color="Blue"]She has been the only person to be able to bring my faith back to me, no one else could have done that, so now when i think of God I think of her impact in my life of her help and love.[/color] I have two friends who are also dating and are quite serious. He constantly says without her he would be lost to the darkness of sin however I need both of you guys to remember, even if you find "the girl of your dreams" she is only magnifying the light of Christ. If you feel empty without her remember that GOD IS IN CONTROL. I have a really hard time with this one myself because right now it feels like there is no one out there for me. However the Bible says: "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the LORD. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" (Jeremiah 29:11) and we must remember that. I will pray hard for you and your situation.

praying!!!
GOD BLESS YOU!