CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

Hey Guys this is kunoichi,

I need some prayer with this...cuz its putting me into depression. I just did it anonymously cuz i'm too lazy to login and making this fast cuz i'm at work.

Long story short, I was born with detached retina and i have vision in one eye and blind in the other. Its been fine until about 6 months ago when i started to get flashes and floaters. Went to my specialist and they said that something is pulling on my retina which can either detach fine or can detach my retina, making me blind.

If my retina detaches, i have a very very small chance of getting my vision back and thats if i can find a surgeon who would be willing to touch me.

Last few weeks my flashes have gotten increasingly worse. And i'm starting to get tremendous amounts of floaters. I can't go to the specialist because I can't afford to...

I trust in the goodness of the Lord, but i'm scared. Please pray that i will have courage, even if i must being physically blind for the rest of my life.

Oh my gosh, that's really scary. You'll be in my prayers, sure.

My special thing this Lent is to pray for one person especially of the CAA each day from Ash Wednesday until Easter...and I'll be praying for you especially tomorrow. But just the same, you most certainly have my prayers starting now and even beyond tomorrow as well.

I'll pray for you.

I assume you have been tested for eye problems that can cause this?

I will certainly be praying for you. Healing in God's name.

Definetly praying!!!Stay strong my brother!
GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

*Hugs Kunoichi* Eye problems are so scary I have this genetic eye condition that skipped everyone in my family pretty much and showed up to me. Something also dealing with the retina. There was a 75% of not getting it and a 25% of getting it. I guess I was the lucky one to get it ^ ^; Anyway, the result seems to be the same. It is scary, but all we can do is pray that it doesn't turn out that way >_>

*Hug* I'll be praying for you

Stay strong and never loose hope (means the same thing, but yeah) ^ ^

Vision getting steadily worse....please continue prayer. Not sleeping, and just losing motivation

Lifting you up, my brother. Be encouraged.

praying !!!!!!!! Don't give UP h0pe!!

Kunoichi (post: 1202621) wrote:I trust in the goodness of the Lord, but i'm scared. Please pray that i will have courage, even if i must being physically blind for the rest of my life.

Will have courage? It looks to me that you already have it. You are like the perfect example of how a Christian should act and feel in times of trouble - humble, faithful, and still loving the Lord. I pray for your courage (John 14:27), but your words have touched me so much that I'm going to have the audactity to pray that you see out of both eyes perfectly. And with the same love I pray for Tsukuyomi and truthobjective. I thank God for your passionate faith.

Keeping you in my prayers

truthobjective (post: 1203122) wrote:Now, if you would, please allow me to add that, as a totally blind person myself,

Not to be rude or derail this thread, but if you're blind, how could you have used the Internet to find this forum and read this thread to write a reply?

Or do you take dictation?

I'm not able to drive too much right now, only as much as I absolutely have to for work.

For those of you that are praying, I thankyou. For those of you who are offering advice, I thankyou.

I'm currently getting some books on braille and doing research. I will trust in the goodness of the Lord, no matter the outcome.

I'll be praying for you, Kun. Thanks for being such a great encouragement to me in the past --Know God will take care of you no matter what happens.
And there are resources available for you to help. Just don't be afraid to ask!

*hugs*

My heart breaks for you Kunoichi. Any problems I have are minor irritations and I think about all the ways I've taken my body for granted.

The Lord knows what you need and he knows how to take care of you, no matter what condition your body is in. I'll be praying for you.

Kunochi, youre on my wallet prayer list. That means im praying for you day in and day out. God bless you, and dont lose faith, Trust him no matter the out come.

Hey guys, Kunoichi's vision is getting worse at the moment, to the point where she cannot even really read... Please keep her in your prayers as she needs them most right now. Thanks for you continued support, and prayers...

UPDATE:
Can't read or drive. Hardly able to type this. Ummm Doc said vision is definetely gotten worse go for a ultrasound weds, tomorrow. Please pray. Can barely do my job or anything.

If anyone hears from Yashua and how he is doing please let inu know cuz he can call me. I can't really read anymore.

Thanks guys

I'm just trusting the Lord and know that whatever happens he is with me. I'm scared and nauseas at the moment due to my vision but the Lord is good. Please no one forget that.

God bless

Kelly aka kunoichi

I'm praying for you Kelly.
Whatever may happen, may God be with you through it all.

Just keep praying girl. Don't loose hope. Believe that things will work out ^ ^ No matter how much discouraging it seems. Things will get better. If you believe that then they will

Praying that everything works out for you

Fish and Chips (post: 1203604) wrote:Not to be rude or derail this thread, but if you're blind, how could you have used the Internet to find this forum and read this thread to write a reply?

Or do you take dictation?

Truthobjective is my good friend so I'll reply to this because I know the answer. Some computer developers have been hard at work on screen readers that basically convert any body of text into spoken audio, which allows blind people to use many of the features formerly only available to sighted people. We talk over AIM all the time, and Truthobjective is quite the computer aficionado. And as to how he registered, because the CAPATCHA is a living nightmare to the blind, he asked me as a trusted friend to input the information to register his profile.

*pulls Kunoichi into a huge hug* My dear sister, I am so terribly sorry to hear this, I cannot believe this would happen to you. I will keep you in my prayers! If you ever need ANYTHING and I mean anything! Please.. PLEASE contact me! I will be sending you a PM.

I am truly sorry this has happened to you Kelly-sama. And I hope that one way or another.. you will get better.

God bless you my Sister
~Nami~

I will keep praying for you, Kelley. God will meet your needs --He will take care of you no matter your circumstance or trial.

Love you friend. Keep in touch.

UPDATE:

no retinal detachments or tears, praise God. Still can go blind in the next few months but they do not know either way. ...

i'm in major depression over everything right now. I had a mental breakdown today. I can't function, can't sleep, can't eat....and though I do not wish to kill myself....i have no strength left. please pray, bessech the Lord to help me for I am nothing more than dust and I can only cry out to him in anguish and praise him for his mercy.

I will pray.

"Don't be afraid; just believe." - Mark 5:36

God keep you and be with you always. You are greatly loved by God and all of us here.

Kunoichi (post: 1205173) wrote:i'm in major depression over everything right now. I had a mental breakdown today. I can't function, can't sleep, can't eat....and though I do not wish to kill myself....i have no strength left. please pray, bessech the Lord to help me for I am nothing more than dust and I can only cry out to him in anguish and praise him for his mercy.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." - Matthew 5:3

Sometimes hard to come to terms with, especially when depressed, but a fundamental truth nonetheless. For the impact you've had on people via CAA, your reward is great indeed.

Hey guys,

well i have my family mad at me cuz i'm staying at the job i am in. Because it does not require a degree, they do not deem it owrthy. I feel abandoned, frustrated, sad, angry, with out hope, and just all arund miserable. Maybe it makes me weak, aybe it makes me a whiner but so be it. I do not care anymore!

I can't deal with this anymore.

I have cried out to God and he remains silent, I have tried to see if he would direct my path but all he says s follow him. I'm so confused, so lost. If i didn't have such a repulsion to it, I would start drinking to just easte some of the pain away.

Sorry again for the mispellings, can't see this to type it so if it is kinda jarbled then i apologize. I'm so stressed with my financial situation at the moment (lots of medical bills) and school, and work, and home and family and life. From teh grace of God alone I have not gone into suicidal thinking but i want to run. I want to just get away as far as I can . I just can't handle anything anymore....and worse yet, I may be getting fired cuz all of this is making me incapapble of doing my job which I love to do! .....I have no where to turn and no light to lift my spirits.

I can see why Jesus in his anguish, cried out to his father in the midst of his suffering an dsaid, "Father why have you forsaken me." Maybe that is what I feel. I am humble before God cuz I can't control oa lick of this but I too question, "why? " i do not have any strength left in my body. I have none. I am getting devoured on all sides and I can't not lift a hand to fight or raise my spirit. I am done.

Don't give up, Kun. God will meet all your needs --He's still good no matter what circumstances we find ourselves in.

Philippians 4:19
"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus."

Keep us update. Love you.