I'm cracking
PostPosted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 8:09 am
I don't like to post selfish prayer requests, but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I also don't like to divulge certain things, but I think I'll make an exceptiont this time. I Allow me to elaborate.
Three of the people in my household work full time. One's my mom, one's my older sister, and the other is my father who is constantly doped up on pain pills. He's the one I have to spend my nights with because my sister usually works nights and my mom always works nights. He's home at night, but I might as well be taking care of my two brothers by myself. His parenting skills suck. When my brothers are fighting, he doesn't help me unless I ask for help and then he just says "That's enough" or tries to tell them funny stories(which makes them even madder).
He comes home, goes on the computer, then goes to bed at eight o clock. So we have to be extra quiet or he gets mad. Then at about nine he gets up and goes on the computer again. I make dinner every night. I clean the house every night. I cry nearly every night. I have to put on a brave face for my brothers so that they don't get upset. They're only 11 and 12. The older one is being taught defiance by his father and I think he knows how upset me, my mom, and my sister are by my dad's idiocy. So he's been rebelling and defiant.
I'm home all day on the weekends with them. I am, essentially, a single mom. My only alleviation is the nights my mom and sister are home, and that's not many. I don't mind the cooking. I don't mind the cleaning.
What bugs me is the fact that my dad is doped up, says the stupidest things sometimes and doesn't help me at all. He may as well not even be here. That would make my life easier if he weren't. And I feel like an awful person for not wanting him to be here. I mean, he is my dad after all.
Also... I'm lonely. My only friend is in England. I have no one to talk to. That makes it... a lot harder on me.
So, uhm, if you could just pray that things would get easier for my family... and that we would find an answer... and that i could handle things better... that would be great. Sorry for the long post.
Three of the people in my household work full time. One's my mom, one's my older sister, and the other is my father who is constantly doped up on pain pills. He's the one I have to spend my nights with because my sister usually works nights and my mom always works nights. He's home at night, but I might as well be taking care of my two brothers by myself. His parenting skills suck. When my brothers are fighting, he doesn't help me unless I ask for help and then he just says "That's enough" or tries to tell them funny stories(which makes them even madder).
He comes home, goes on the computer, then goes to bed at eight o clock. So we have to be extra quiet or he gets mad. Then at about nine he gets up and goes on the computer again. I make dinner every night. I clean the house every night. I cry nearly every night. I have to put on a brave face for my brothers so that they don't get upset. They're only 11 and 12. The older one is being taught defiance by his father and I think he knows how upset me, my mom, and my sister are by my dad's idiocy. So he's been rebelling and defiant.
I'm home all day on the weekends with them. I am, essentially, a single mom. My only alleviation is the nights my mom and sister are home, and that's not many. I don't mind the cooking. I don't mind the cleaning.
What bugs me is the fact that my dad is doped up, says the stupidest things sometimes and doesn't help me at all. He may as well not even be here. That would make my life easier if he weren't. And I feel like an awful person for not wanting him to be here. I mean, he is my dad after all.
Also... I'm lonely. My only friend is in England. I have no one to talk to. That makes it... a lot harder on me.
So, uhm, if you could just pray that things would get easier for my family... and that we would find an answer... and that i could handle things better... that would be great. Sorry for the long post.
