Pained but feel guilty about it

[airichan623]

So the last while has been very hard. One of my friends is only 14, but she has run away with a drug dealer and hates "church people" like me because we are "too judgmental" (because we worry about but are cautious of her because of her drug issues). She is a pathological liar, OCD, ADHD, and bipolar. Her home has had a history of drug abuse and physical abuse, and her mom's only rules are (1) dont get caught and (2) dont overdose. I want to help, but all I can do is give it to God and keep praying for her.

Meanwhile, in my life, I get so sorry for myself because I can't help the girl above, my car busted a wheel, and one of my friends at Japanese class smells of smoke. I can't bring myself to do homework until 10 at night (so bed at 12:30 (wake up at 6), and the lack of sleep is giving me headaches. I feel secluded even though I'm surrounded by loving friends. And now, I was denied a part in a play I really, really wanted to be in. Just in it. And the only ones who didn't receive callbacks were my sister and I. I still dont have a date for prom (and none of my friends want to hang together there). Even my friends sometimes leave me out of parties.

The things that are happening to me really aren't so bad or terrible, but as a naive girl who has too much time alone with her own thoughts, its hard. Maybe this is a temporary bout of depression. But I feel so weighed down.

Please pray for me. You guys are sometimes the only positive thing I think about all day. Sometimes, if I have just cried, I come here to be encouraged. So thank you guys.

[Tsukuyomi]

I'll definitely be praying for you and your friend ^_^

Try to be there for your friend as much as you can.. as much as she'll let you be

Sorry to hear things are piling up on you so much 8( Hang in there Airi ^__^ You can PM me anytime you want to talk ^^

[Makachop^^128]

Will be praying, sounds almost exactly what happened to one of my friends recently.

[TGJesusfreak]

Will be praying.^^

We're all here for you.

[Dr.Faust]

praying

[Adie]

I'll be praying.

[Aedin]

I'll pray, and can try to help.

[Etoh*the*Greato]

I'll be praying... This is a situation for God. Just open yourself to Him and try to find His will in it.

[airichan623]

I'll definitely be praying for you and your friend ^_^

Try to be there for your friend as much as you can.. as much as she'll let you be

Sorry to hear things are piling up on you so much 8( Hang in there Airi ^__^ You can PM me anytime you want to talk ^^

Thanks Tsuku-chan. It's so comforting to have so many praying for me. And, I can feel the effects of all your (everyone's) prayers in my life: I felt so uplifted today. It was an unexplainable peace.

I'll be praying... This is a situation for God. Just open yourself to Him and try to find His will in it.

Thanks Etoh-san. I just wonder what God's will is sometimes...I mean, I think about it so hard that I can't tell what is the voice of the Holy Spirit and what is my own internal voice, and what is the voice of my human nature. I mean, going to a Christian school gives me a lot of "head knowledge" but it's hard to apply it to your life. Some say that you can feel it in your gut when its the will of God. But sometimes, some choices are between two good things, and neither are inherently "sinful." Sorry that was an Airi spiritual topic rant.

Thank you again everyone for your support. Through your support and God's leadership, I know I will make it through this. Thank you so much. I thank the Lord for all of you. Just keep praying for my friend. Pray that she would realize she needs the Lord's help, and that she would seek human help with her addictions as well.

[airichan623]

update: the girl i mentioned is not at home right now. i thought she might be because she came to youth group and thats where she headed when she left early and started walking away. her mom is worried. i pray her mom will finally call the police. the last time she left home and left her fone, she went on a road trip to a city in another state a hundred miles away and didnt return for a weak. frankly im scared for her.

[acgifford]

I'm praying too. Just hang in there. *Hugs for Airichan*

[airichan623]

I started another prayer thread just about the friend...
but now about me.

I think my sanity is going to the winds. I cant keep my ideals straight. I cant focus on fun anymore. The weight of the world keeps pulling me down... and its stretching my tender heart to its limit.

[Tsukuyomi]

I'll continue to pray :-S

Feel free to PM me to rant anytime you want ^__^

[acgifford]

I pray for you. *hugs* Hang in there.