Didn't want to have to ask...but...

[Mr. Hat'n'Clogs]

It's like that myth about the hero. He made wings out of wax so he could fly, but he flew to close to the sun and came crashing down to Earth.

Alright, I try not to ask people to help me, because I really don't think I should bother people with my insignificant problems, something only reinforced by my mission trip to Denver, but right now I really need some prayer. Of late, between school, soccer, and church I've begun to run myself ragged. Most of the time when I get home I just eat, do my homework, and then go to bed. And, those three things don't seem to be doing anything for me. Soccer practice is exhausting and I don't ever get to play in games because I'm freshman, at school, none of my friends really seem to want to talk to me, and church is almost starting to feel like a chore, which is the reason I quit the youth worship band. I haven't had time to get on here or Facebook, so my friends who actually do want to talk to me don't have a chance too. On top of this, I just had a fight with one of my closer friends, and while we've resolved our issues, it still a little awkward. Then I also have a huge desire for a girlfriend, and everything I usually enjoy like anime, music, reading, or even drawing have no joy seemingly left in them. And if this was the first time, I really wouldn't come, but...

Some of you are probably wondering why I put that quote from Fullmetal Alchemist at the beginning by now. The reason is that my life for the past year or so has been in a vicious cycle. I slowly climb my way up, and when I finally seem to find happiness, my wings melt and I come crashing down. I don't know if I can stand this anymore. It's so hard to find happiness, only to have it snatched away from me as I fall on my face. It kind of came to its worse last night, and while I wasn't considering it(I honestly wasn't) I had wondered who would really care if I comitted suicide, especially if they played a role in causing the(hypothetical) act.

Any prayer would be really appreciated. It would just be nice to have someone reassure me of being of some value.

[Hana Ryuuzaki]

[font="palatino Linotype"]Definitely praying for you, hon. I can sympathize with a lot of those feelings... So I'll be praying TWOfold!!!

~Best wishes.[/font]

[Mr. Hat'n'Clogs]

Thank you so very much for that.

[Tsukuyomi]

*Glares* Don't ever think you're worthless ^___^

It sounds like you're running yourself on empty 8( This isn't good o___o You should sit back and take a break ^^ It really sounds like you're not enjoying the things you used to, because your far too concentrated on what you "have" to do :-?

Is there anyway you can take a break from Soccer ^^? Maybe, just until you get everything else situated ^^?

I'm not telling you to stop going to church, but maybe a break from church will help as well You shouldn't "Have" to go to church, you should "want" to go ^__^

You are always with Him and He is always with you ^__^

You have my prayers

[sdzero]

Ahhh, kids. I remember when I was just like you. Starting high school, lots of stress, dizzying schedule, trying to be social, working, martial arts classes, homework and being dead tired by the end of the day. Strangly enough that wasn't too long ago and many things have changed since then.

First, let me just get this out of the way and say suicide is never the answer...it's a trap.

Second, your a still a kid, so try to enjoy what you have and hold on to the moments that you are living now.

Third, please don't kill yourself.

Fourth, GET TOUGH! Weave through the punches, your gonna get hit, but not as much if you just stand their. Try you best in every situation! Give it your all! Take a chance and if you fail, then at least you know you tried. Heh, that's what my martial arts teacher tought me.

Fifth, don't die!

Sixth, is about getting a girl friend...umm which is something I know a little about. But...all you have to do is go up to a girl you like, state your name, ask if they will be your girl friend and vow you will protect them with your life. If that doesn't work then do not worry about failing. You're still young and most high school relationships never last anyway.

Seventh, there's someone having a rough time just like you out there. But the difference between them and you is that I'm routing for ya buddy! I mean look at the wall of text!

Eighth, I hope that was encouraging enough...if not then at least I tried! I hope someone on the message board backs me up though.

I will certainly pray for you!

[Ante Bellum]

I'll be praying.

[Mr. Hat'n'Clogs]

To Mr. sdZero: I did say that I wasn't even considering it, I was just had the thought about who would care. I have never once considered suicide as a way out.

But to all of you, thank you so much. I really think your prayers made a huge difference, because today I finally get a break, and I don't feel like I'm going to collapse or die, and today actually feels kind of nice.

[Tsukuyomi]

[quote="Mr. Hat'n'Clogs (post: 1342448)
But to all of you, thank you so much. I really think your prayers made a huge difference, because today I finally get a break, and I don't feel like I'm going to collapse or die, and today actually feels kind of nice.[/QUOTE"]
That's great to hear

Sometimes, a little break is all it takes (heehee, that rhymed) ^__^ I'm glad you're feeling better

[sdzero]

Great! You finally got a break! Thank the lord!

[SIZE="1"]Sorry for the long lecture...I often get carried away.[/SIZE]

[Anystazya]

Sixth, is about getting a girl friend...umm which is something I know a little about. But...all you have to do is go up to a girl you like, state your name, ask if they will be your girl friend and vow you will protect them with your life. If that doesn't work then do not worry about failing. You're still young and most high school relationships never last anyway.

XD That made me smile. Actually, the whole post did...XD

Anyways. Mr. Hat'n'Clogs (I think I need to find a different nickname for ya...), you already know my thoughts and such through PM, so I won't repeat them here. Just, I'm still praying for you, and hang in there!

[EricTheFred]

Wait a minute. Insignificant problems? Ridiculous.
Definitely praying for you and sympathizing. Been there, and it felt like it was gonna kill me. And no, it wasn't easy to get through.

Hang in there, Buddy.

[Riggidig]

I've been in that boat before myself. High school/college was a ROUGH time for me. Ah how many times I contemplated suicide because everything just felt so overwhelming/pointless...

Maybe it's time for a change if you feel burned out? Sounds to me like you're stuck in a rut where your needs are not being fulfilled. Pray to God (I will do so as well) to show you if there isn't something else you can/should be doing. You might find a pleasant surprise.

Oh, and don't worry about the whole gf thing: It's WAY overated and you're still VERY young ;-)

Peace and God bless

[Makachop^^128]

will be praying
sounds tough
if I were u I would quite soccer and some of the extras
and just focus on God and family and friends.

[Anystazya]

if I were u I would quite soccer and some of the extras
and just focus on God and family and friends.

Quitting soccer...huh...but for some people, it's more important to them, and it's difficult to just quit. I, being a soccer player myself (and also knowing that very soon, I'll probably be in much the same situation-as far as busyness goes, anyways) I know that I'd have trouble just quitting some sort of stuff, like sports.

Anyways, I thought I'd put in a note about getting a girlfriend, Hats. As has been said before, you're still young and have the rest of your high school/college years ahead of ya. Don't jump into a relationship without knowing you really feel for and trust the girl-and she should follow the Lord. God should be at the head of all relationships.

Well, trust God with it, and if He sees fit to give you a girlfriend, He will. Don't worry too much, okay? You've got loads of time.

[Makachop^^128]

Quitting soccer...huh...but for some people, it's more important to them, and it's difficult to just quit. I, being a soccer player myself (and also knowing that very soon, I'll probably be in much the same situation-as far as busyness goes, anyways) I know that I'd have trouble just quitting some sort of stuff, like sports.

Anyways, I thought I'd put in a note about getting a girlfriend, Hats. As has been said before, you're still young and have the rest of your high school/college years ahead of ya. Don't jump into a relationship without knowing you really feel for and trust the girl-and she should follow the Lord. God should be at the head of all relationships.

Well, trust God with it, and if He sees fit to give you a girlfriend, He will. Don't worry too much, okay? You've got loads of time.

sorry
the only sport I do is martial arts and skate boarding so to me sports don't mater as much as relationships and church. If I had friends and the relationships were at stake I would quit any day.
but I'm weird like that so sorry.

but I agree with the girlfriend thing.

[Anystazya]

Don't be sorry. I was only pointing it out. I mean, I myself am the type of person who is on student council, in the volunteer program, concert band, on most of the school sports teams (plus karate, which isn't even with the school), and then there's my school work, which is a place I have expectations to meet. Buuuut, I know that not everyone would be able to handle that. I wasn't mad at you or anything \^_^/

Um, yeah. I do believe that relationships (especially the one with God) are more important than other stuff. I mean, I can definitely see where you're coming with that, Maka-chan. Heck, I went through a rough start last year, especially since, added to the mix, I was getting sick all the time. I didn't always feel like going to practices/meetings. But I'm a goody-two-shoes and do it anyway. ^^;

Anyways, Hat'n'Clogs, just do whatever God is telling you to do. ^^

[Makachop^^128]

lol ok ^^
u sound busy
I pretty much em a stranger to my school.

hat'n'clogs, will be praying

[sdzero]

sorry
the only sport I do is martial arts and skate boarding so to me sports don't mater as much as relationships and church. If I had friends and the relationships were at stake I would quit any day.
but I'm weird like that so sorry.

but I agree with the girlfriend thing.

You take martial arts! So do I! That is so awesome! I will teach you my signature technique "The Eye of the Hurricane".

Opps...
Sorry, I went off topic. I am glad things are starting to get better for you Mr. Hat'n'Clogs.